Sins. | Not Tragedies.

R.I.P. blog.

2009-10-10T04:00:00.000-07:00

I declare my blog dead.

This blog, has just been a graveyard of my rants and emo-posting.
But now, since yours truly is too happy and back to his
very best.

I declare this blog R.I.P.

Till next time, I hope to never post any emo
blog post on this blog again.

I've been cured.

Thank you guys for reading.

Blogging everyday is still only for losers.

Savior Production.

Uh Oh, there I go.

2009-09-20T20:31:00.000-07:00

My shades got me blind
Am I the one
You were lookin to find
Tryin to find a meaning
Within my line
Get inside my mind
Stab me from behind
Now you did it
Now you gotta give it
back
throw em in the sack
return it
before you face the savior attack
silicon exploding on your rack
clean you out with that african american jack
so blind
I see no white or black
World is falling apart with this track
So I'm constantly running on every lap
Asian kid gotta practice how to rap

In the shower
On top of the empire tower
On the bottom of world trade center
In the middle of the offender
In the process during a render
Do life like B.I.G.
When smaller is always bigger with lil weezy
You should start lovin me like your enemy
cause your friends change
While I stay the same dirty and greasy
These beat gets me deezy
Crack that bottle on girl that gets needy
Let me do my thing, missy

Stop with that plan to steal my heart
Love will soon tear us apart
So I gave mine to her at the start
Louder with davy jone's heart beat
I eat angel's meat
The devils curse don't mean shit
Used to being hot
So I'm alright with that hells gate heat
I don't serve, I tore you a new rip
Still highlighting me giving them that knockout hit
What goes around / comes around
Back on to the repeat.

Note to self.

2009-09-03T01:49:00.000-07:00

Note to self. August 14th.
Back to my very best.
Back to being myself.

Thanks.

14.8.

2009-08-26T18:40:00.000-07:00

I doubt many people read my uneventful blog.
But this is for the one special reader.
The 3 post below are for you, and you know it too.
God, this sounds so cheesy and corny.
so...I'm gona stop saying stupid naive stuff like that..

Anyway. thanks for being you.
14.8.

Letter.

2009-08-26T18:30:00.002-07:00

Please give me a call
As I wonder off
Look into my crystal ball
Watch my rise and fall
I’ll be grateful
Maybe there’s more past these walls
My eyes staring through the long halls
Life is not that bad after all
Not at all.

Hey dear
Just dropping a quick message
I heard life has been hard lately for you
So I thought I spread you some cheer
I’ll go see you next year
Life seems incomplete when you’re not here
Maybe I’m just naïve
Never know what to believe
Words are made to deceive
Remember my ex?
She said she never leave
But that bitch did, and called the cops on me too
I hope she gets the karma she deserves to receive.

Are you different?
I hope so
We talk on the phone for so long
Share laughs even with our heavy accent
It’s been a while now
And yet we haven’t had our first argument
No worries there
I doubt it will happen
If it does
Who cares?
We’re drowning in the current.

You ever get sad
For no reason at all?
I do
But lately I’m glad
So I write nice poems like these
Why do people blame their fate when their mad ?
I never know
Let’s hope one day you’ll be my best I ever had
Wait, that’s wrong, that’s past tense
I still want this to go on
Man, I’m not even making any sense
And you still laugh at my joke
Must be crazy as I am, no offense
I bet god is laughing too
At our untold story’s expense

I’m trying hard not to sound cheesy
Or too corny
Used to writing sad songs
Or the occasion love fantasy
I apologize if my words are coming on too strong
Was never good in expressing myself all along
We’ll see when the time comes
Whether together we belong
I hope so
Sick of being wrong
If only I’ll be your superman
And you’ll be my weakness kryptonite
My muse for all my write
I looked up horoscopes the other day
To my delight
It said we’ll be alright
Your passion fits into my ego just right
Now the last piece of the puzzle
Will be me getting on the next flight
Who knows, someday,
I just might.

Please give me a call
As I wonder off
Look into my crystal ball
Watch my rise and fall
I’ll be grateful
Maybe there’s more past these walls
My eyes staring through the long halls
Life is not that bad after all
Not at all.

Hello. Hello. Again.

2009-08-26T18:30:00.001-07:00

Hello Hello again?

This is getting me obsessed
Swallow down the rhymes to digest
Shit it out it to a release of stress
Many of you never had guessed
I'm writing this during my test
Every page is just another mess
Could I defer the exam with a booty call request
How is this write different from the rest
I haven't looked down her dress
So it's all imagination for the breast
So baby now get undressed
Lemme write to the beat of your chest
You readers got all impressed
Why am I so cursed and blessed

- would you focus on your test sir?
If only I could kill you with my word
Burn down the building with all these nerd
Voodoo you, so gimme more bubbles to stir
Look into the pot all I see is her
Our body parts are in blurred
Must be some Japanese porn, weird
Your friends in shock when they heard
You giving me the L word
Haters can count my fingers
Count to the third
I'm more than just a flirt

If only we solve a brawl without a gun
Instead a war of words should be done
Getting mad at a Facebook comment?
You need to chill out hun
'I'm yours' when jason mraz has none
Come on, I'm just having some fun
I make fun of whoever I want
Here comes the gangsta fans
I better get ready to run
Should I finish what has already begun
Who writes like this?
your looking at the only one
Onto the poetry contest I didn't won

They write about love
but never been
My inspiration comes from the broken violin
Wait, deja vu rhyme for a min
Scary thoughts creeps upon your skin
Writing this put a smile on my grin
I should get awarded the second I'm in
Simply cause my words are real from within

word

Hello. Hello. Linda.

2009-08-26T18:18:00.000-07:00

Hello, Hello
I'll be the vamp sucking on the necks
Hormones running high as i relapse
We can switch it up and do it on the deck
Anytime just drop me a text
I'll bring the condoms and get ready for sex
Better head than all my ex
Moaning too much fog up the specs
Want more? lemme recharge tat vibrating objects
Just relax
..
Relax senorita
Take off that passionata
We can do stuff thats plain bizarre
Sneak one right in the cinema
I'll be careful not to leave a scar
Can't help myself, that's just the way i are
Babe, cant handle it ? i know CPR
After this, we go shop for some la Pearla
Get some sippy in the nearby bar
Go at it again, we fuck like the porn star

She said
I <3 u a lot
Must be my words getting her hot
Blood pressure breaking the clot
Tied up together in a knot
Don't slip on that wet little spot
Holy, its wetter than i thought
My love is my sex, for u I have a lot
I have true feelings here, opps, I'm getting caught
What happens now to this plot ?

graphic.

Selfish.

2009-08-17T05:01:00.000-07:00

When I open the paper, all i see is hate
How about some love, that would be great
So let me write about it, can you just wait
This is for the world that god did create
Heaven or hell, we'll see on the date
They say if your queer you go to hell
So you better be straight
But I don't believe in those shit
I make my own fate
I be with to whoever I choose to mate
My words got the politicians to debate
But I'm sure all the readers can relate
The pressure that comes with life
All the responsibility on the plate
They say savior, you should be sedate
Writing these shit poems from morning till late
How can they hate the magic my words just made?!

Is it scary from my view
Living with a loosen screw
You don't have a clue
Think my rhymes are through
Chill, I still got a few
Everyone judges who
And yet they wana try my shoe
That I always knew
Inside a lonely heart
Is it scary to you
Others get what you pursue
Your jealousy starts to brew
Do you still want everyone's dreams to come true
Maybe at the end
The evil one is you.

Well,I want to do it my way
Only my pro's are in weigh
I'm a selfish lover everyday
Devil I might portray
Angel in disguise they pray
Again, I ask to myself, who are they
Selfish life, you don't get a say.

Burning Love.

2009-08-13T03:21:00.000-07:00

It's just freestyle
All these while
But before we walk a mile
Let me dial
Your number preferred right here right now
Don't get hostile
It's just a trial
I can handle you, I'm versatile
Don't need a while
Gimme a smile and so will I'll
Dine you out
Take you out
Wine you out
Then make you out

Every single time
I get this out and start to rhyme
Talk about love and you come combine
Its write as I go all in my mind
Shakespeare I got him to resign
Baby I give you my love, don't decline
Look up in the sky with the stars go aline
Wish for a dream come true, be a star to shine
Wont walk out of love before I run out of time

Wont talk out of rhyme before next stanza
Make plans with me cause I be your agenda
I love you girl, before, now and afta
Hold me tight, I'm rare like panda
Don't make me repeat twice, don't beg a pardon
Memories are meant to be forgotten but the fire in us still burn.

Deja Vu?

2009-08-10T23:07:00.000-07:00

Sometimes, shit just happens the same way it did during high school.
Is it cause I've forgotten the mentality, or the obvious, people never change ?
I think I've gotten used to a certain way, meeting new people / different people who are
not used to me being me, I need to tone it down a notch.

Oh wellz, Life is just a journey of searching who I am.
Sure, insecurity rises when you do not feel you are accepted by someone for being who you
are, so... I don't know... lol
Been running out of ideas / smart-ass comment lately, either the school is stressing me out, or
I might actually have to consider going to one of em seminars to boost up my social skills.

Let's just hope I have a bigger patience than I did when I started off, and wait this shit out.

it's 2am, so me should quit typing on my blog talking to myself and go study !

Look Back at Me.

2009-08-09T00:13:00.000-07:00

People today hate too much
So Imma write to give you a nudge
Not the full picture,
Just a simple touch
Artist painting here
How you enrich my life when its poor
They say I sound immature
Jumping onto you without knowing how you were

So I'll call you
Replaying the images when I last saw you
Words coming out freely but all true
She seem to show no interest
Is it work stress
School stress
I know I'm just not the best
If you knew we can't connect, I don't protest
You don't, yet you came and gave a reject
My heart refuse to accept
Lemme prove that you're incorrect
This crush is still stuck in my chest
Don't care bout my past its all wreck

I'm telling you where I'm at
I hope someday you'll look back.

Love Music.

2009-08-02T23:31:00.000-07:00

Savior.

I'll be looking for you if your lost
Run away with you behind Kate moss
I'm thinking about you without a pause
Give up everything just so your my because
Got worshiping your beauty so gimme your cross
I say what I mean, I need no applause

Real feelings don't crumble with time
How you feel is how I made my rhyme
Don't mix up me with others in the past
My emotions aren't moving away fast
Never planned for this to begin
Infected with love, its spreading within
Let me live on with your disease
Why find a vaccine when you can be Mr lee's
Its a beautiful story with a hint of magic
This comes from the lyrical maverick
Making love for you, this is the love music.

Marry me.

2009-07-29T16:28:00.000-07:00

Hardeep.

My hubby 2 B
When U asked me 2 MARRY U
I said 'Yes I DO'
The things that U do, it was all 4 show
Babe don't U know, that U had me at 'Hello'
Goodbye 2 all my other admirers
They told me of all their desires
Oh the broken hearts
Will they ever 4get the sparks?

Think of all the exciting fun, just U & ME
Oh Holy Mary Mercy ME
This is what love's supposed 2 B
How lucky U R 2 HAVE a fine lady LIKE me
Sent from the heavens, a dream 4 ALL 2 SEE
Love is the essence, love is the bridge of all distance.
*Kiss kiss* let us forever B in this Bliss!

Aether.

This love poem trading just got intense
Imma submit to the suspense
Love knows no distance
Hope you take no offense
Way better than a beauty queen
You get what i mean
All over my dirty dream
Got a rise on the steam
After our wedding, let sex be the theme
Your the one, like I am to Billie jean

As I write this, sparks goes static
You read it, your my love addict
Can't rehab me cause I'm the babe magnet
Turning on all your gadget
The moment you close the doors, we go at it
Say it out, your love got me mad
Give me a kiss, and I'll show you whats on my pad
Oh darling, the best i ever had.

Life's Come Back.

2009-07-27T00:08:00.001-07:00

I noticed, everyone's life has been a fight. A fight to survive, and a fight to achieve greatness. Was pretty happy with my recovery recently, whether it was in the poker table, relationship, social status, and also my academic.

In life, I've learned that even when the end seems dark, and if you hit a dead end tunnel, all you have to do is continue working on it, and someday u will dig your way out of misery.

There is so much more to be learned in life, and I do hope that now I'll be more in-control with my addictions. No way do I want to relive what I went through recently. Let's hope this comeback is the best ever.

Thanks for the ones who wished me for my birthday, Sorry, I'm just not into celebrating my birthday.

Still a kid in a big world, just better and wiser than last year.

Leo's are coming

2009-07-18T23:08:00.000-07:00

Yes, July 24th is coming, hence, it means the starting of the horoscope LEO. The pride, the king of the horoscopes, the leader of all is coming.

Why ? Cause we are fucking proud to be Leo.

Leo's are natural born leaders.

Lets begin a strong long list of crazy achievements that LEO people have done.

1. WALK ON THE MOON. yes, Neil Armstrong. - the 1st person on the moon, WAS A LEO.
One Small Step for Man, One Huge Step for LEO.

I bet someone else was suppose to take the step 1st, but he just pushed them out of the way.

Leo Attribute shown - Must be the 1st in everything, so people will remember you forever.

2. BE PRESIDENT. the SAVIOR of the world. - BARACK OBAMA, oh come on, you think that Obama was treated like a celebrity for no reason ?
He is a LEO, of course he loves the attention and his capable of using his leo's power to charm the world. It's not that hard to charm people when your a leo.

Leo Attribute shown - Enjoying being the leader, Savior of others. Giving other people hope, carrying people's burden.

Okay, those are the 2 big ones.
Now onto showbiz.

okay, let's be honest here, we Leo's are good when we are riding high

3. Whitney Houston

She was one of the biggest names in music during thhe 80's and 90's, with her recent drug problem solved, now she is planning her big comeback. LEO style.

Leo Attribute shown - having a god given talent, but throwing it away, simply cause she still knows shes better than most singer out there.

4. Madonna

the queen of music herself is a LEO too. From her off stage wild party flesh showing antics, and her bravery to say anything she wants, she is definitely one of the Leo's that truly shines.

Leo Attribute shown - brave and proud to show off her sexual side publicly and being different from all the other musicians nowadays, in a league of her own.

you would get the joke if you known that madonna was in a movie called ' a league of their own'

5. Arnold Schwarzenaegger

Mr. Terminator, Mr Governor of California, his a fucking Leo too. Using his popularity to then turn leader. Surprised ? Come on, after looking at Obama, you shouldn't be surprise. Any Leo Leader probably wins the crowd by his popularity, rarely do we actually need to show what we are capable of.

Leo Attribute shown - Smart enough to transform his popularity to getting leadership support from the public.

6. Halle Berry

The First EVER african - american woman to win Oscar Best Actress award. Enough said.

Leo Attribute shown - Making black woman proud, A leader definitely.

7. Jennifer Lopez

The most influential hispanic singer in the world, has been in relationships with high profile celebrity, from P.diddy to ben affleck, and now married to marc anthony. and HOW CAN YOU NOT LOVE HER ASS.

Leo Attribute shown - Bringing class, fame and lust to everywhere she goes, everyone she meets.

8. J.K. Rowling

yea yea... get excited at the name.. harry potter and all, i'm not a fan. but you gotta respect how she bullshit'd her way into millions of dollars. Pure Leo... totally capable of sucking fans in.

Leo Attribute shown - Using her creativity to the best, When Leo talks, you listen and want somemore.

With so many more Leo's out there.. Lisa kudrow - the only cast of F.R.I.E.N.D.S. who won an oscar. Sean Penn, best actor of the year during the last oscars.
Ah yes.... sure, it might seem abit showing off this post, but suck it, Leo's are coming.

You want a harmony filled balanced company, go get a libra or something.. want revenge... get a scorpio, you want unwanted drama and waste of time romance, get a gemini.

You want leader, fame, fortune, looks, confidence.

Get yourself a Leo.

Come & Get Me

2009-07-14T20:49:00.000-07:00

Aether.

Tick Tock
now the time is up
Aether is here, so haters I say what is up
They try to lock me up
Put me to rehab, 12 steps to clean me up
It's Aether rapping now, so shut the fuck up

Global warming melts to my pumped up heat
Declare war with this simple do re mi beat
Revenge is a bitch, but I prefer it sweet
They tell me, savior you should call it quit
Those motherfuckers even got Lucinda into so much shit
Its still me and her against the world, no plans to call it quit
I lost my eye on the ball, I'm sad to admit
But prepare for total destruction, for all the crimes I'm to commit
I say fuck the world, try to keep me down, now you feeling my spit
Hold my hand tight girl, together we're gona make it
I needed them, but they weren't there, so to hell with it
You know who you are, so let me cut the split

The world killed savior, so now Aether is having a go
If you ain't here when I need you, you bitches need to go
I ain't got time for no gemini bullshit, just to let you know
Shout out to jun hong, you know I always got your back bro
Dust the rust off, see bitches, I'm still stealing the show
Lucinda babe, You know I got money to throw
Why bother listening to a liar talking how she sold drugs for the dough
The more lies dropped, the longer her nose grow
What you gonna do? you don't get to kill me twice in a row
Savior's collapse was yesterday, history, the past, ages ago
Aether is now running the rhymes, so say hello
I'm the comeback pro
After I'm done with these shot, I reload with more ammo
Should I forgive and forget the past ? My answer will be no
You still hear the fans cheering their veneror

Come & get me

It's time to just let me be.

9. Aether.

2009-07-11T19:34:00.000-07:00

9.

We had such potential
Such promise,
But responded my gifts.
And so, I am leaving you.
Our world is ending,
Life must go on.

Savior.

It was the darkest time
It was the dimmest of hours
As I stood alone
In a world, that was alone
Seeing the end
But preventing from reaching the end
Sometimes fear, is the right response
All time, endure will summon the magic of wands
A new story teller
A new creator
Knows not, but to save me today
Knows no other, but to pave my way
The world that I knew of is collapsing
Detox effect is soon to be relapsing
A war within
Accompanied with a battle between
Fallen savior
Death of the savior
Life must go on
When all is destroyed
All there is left, is to rebuild
Time comes ticking when all hopes are gone
Eternity realized when you accept you stand alone
Aether, I'm creating you
The world that I know is ending
You will go on.

Real Emotions.

2009-07-09T18:53:00.000-07:00

Going through life is not easy, break a habit is not easy too.
I am currently going through a relationship bump I guess ? Maybe its the signaling of the end coming soon, or maybe it's just a scar to make me stronger. Who knows right.

This is what I learned from my previous experience, and I'm here to share it.
When a relationship ends, you probably have a few things in mind

1. You will constantly wonder what will your ex partner be doing, wondering is he/she dating other people. Basically, you want them to be unhappy, never happier than you are.

2. Then comes to lonely nights, lonely days where you noticed, by having a relationship, you have isolated most of your friends, and they are... not really there for you anymore. That's where most people panic / get desperate, and go for the 'rebound'.

3. Of course, on comes the sex need, you either call a call girl / hook up with some random person. aka the rebound / or u have chronic masturbation. Either way, it does not end well there.

A break up is not all bad, it takes an estimated time of..maybe 30 to 50 days to get over a serious relationship. By then, you will notice, it the guy/girl, was not that influence or not that important as you thought they were. By then, you would had noticed your more focus on your own work, your own social network, your own life, and of course, financially.

The funny thing is, you will probably give all of them up just to be in love again. How stupid humans are these days.

The one thing that you never noticed, is that you have already matured in ways you never imagined.

1. You've learned how to cope with losing someone, meaning next time if you break up again, just go through the same routine, instead of being the doormat some posers do by begging their partners to take them back.

2. You've learned not to trust people that easily. Meaning, being more independent.

3. You went through hell and you noticed, you are still alive. yes, you are still breathing and still alive. Yes, you went through hell, a lonely spell, and you went through it. Be proud of yourself.

Life is still good regardless. When you notice no matter what life throws at you, you take it and move on. Don't you just feel proud of yourself ?

Life is real, filled with real emotions. So no worries, emotions come and go, the low won't stay forever.

Heal yourself, move on, and live your life, without dwelling about the past.

Before I Self Destruct - The Ugly Within

2009-07-08T09:20:00.000-07:00

At this moment, I truly think I have nothing to look forward to in Canada. LoL.
Hitting an all time low in life. Still in shock after a turn of events lately, funny how I finally found someone, yes, the ONLY ONE, that I really trust, turns out to be the one cheating behind me.
Maybe it's just karma, or maybe it's just fate.
Probably God has something installed for me in the future.

Every day is a chance for a new stance.
Every song is the beginning of a new dance.

So I guess, I have to wait this horrible moment out. As resentment goes, I blame myself for putting trust in anyone at all. This is what I have in mind, when a relationship goes through too much bumps, it is so broken up, that sometimes, you just have to let it go when the time is right. You can love someone, but not be in love with them.

Since shit like that happened, I wake up everyday, avoiding looking into the mirror, and disgusted at all my photos. I feel the ugly within me is matching my ugly on the outside.

For now, I just wish something new would come along, at least give me some hope that life is not as dark as I see it now.

This is truly. Before I Self Destruct.

Reaching Out.

2009-07-06T04:56:00.000-07:00

I describe what I see within my sight
Look at the world from above the height
War and violence on every sight
Hatred and vengeance in every write
I'm not trying to preach, I'm here to enlight
We are selfish, unappreciative just like we did to mike

His gone now
His gone now
You tell me to move on but i don't know how
Mistaken once, mistaken twice I won't allow
So I say it's all about love to everyone
All is forgiven, after all is said and done
Let's love each other, put down all our gun
We meet natural disasters that leaves us with none
Losing love ones every minute, hour, day, month

Heartbreak
Heartache
Overwhelmed with tears upon my wake
Drip by drip it fills the lake
Of my sorrow, of my regret,
Comforting smile I just can't fake
Only when we lose something we remember how to love
Forget how to hate
I guess we never do learn
As the devil enjoys watching the world burn
We be back on selfishness after every turn

Politicians they be lying
Guys they be womanizing
Girls they be materializing
I wonder if rain means God might be crying
The world has it's beautiful side, there's no denying
Time to show some love, no harm trying
When life is hard to get through
Just so you know, I'm here reaching out to you
Life is imperfect, but still beautiful.

Back on the Broken Violin.

2009-07-01T03:18:00.000-07:00

Oh my god
This is just music to my ears
The voices I now hear

Noises from my broken violin
Now on I do no harm but sin
Destroy the world with my inner twin
Feeling the drugs run wild in within
Running through the vain under my skin
Let the hallucinations begin
The world look down on me, but I hold up my chin
Masterminding all the ideas got my head spin
They ask savior now where have you've been
I'm back now,
Let me show you how I play my broken violin

Shh, I have a little secret i want to share
Hidden contempt for you, are you aware
How dare you take me and you to compare
Saying how you work for the money to spare
While I was fed with silver spoon millionaire
Stepping on thin ice dear, so beware
This broken violin can still play some flare
Watch me as I go crazy be your worse nightmare
I've done it once, now just don't be scare
They boast how they work hard to climb up the stair
Now they awaken me, watch me walk on air
Red eyes with vengeance glare
Sight locked onto you, follows you everywhere

Do you remember who was here
Who was here to give you some cheer
After you went through hell for a year
You took it all in with my volunteer
While I sacrificed all my final frontier
Gonna turn reality all the ones you fear
Promises were broken, remaining dreams disappear
Rebuilding on hatred grounds with my engineer
I need to tell you, I hate all of you to be sincere
Only cheer is when I see you in tear
Oh thank the lord, cause the end is near
The broken violin plays by the notes I hear
Whats going through my mind, speeding without a gear
M357 is my only friend, let's just be clear
These words, full of hatred, full of joy to my ear

They deem me screwed up, while I say I'm gifted
Fuck those non-believers, I'm just complicated
Introduce anger management, never bother to be consulted
Gave you a smile and pretends everything is fine when confronted
I don't take the high road, Stab you from behind with my hatred
Two face kid, good boy in front of mama, if she knew who I was
She would had wished she never mated

Junhong is telling me to hold on and get a grip
Why should I, when I'm sinking this relationship
No mercy on my soul, so curses voodoo off my lip
I have the best skills in revenge that one could equip
Long rhymes, more ideas but this is just a preview drip
Before it overflows, and the switch permanently flip

I'm back on my drug
Gonna pull my own plug
No, i don't deserve your hug
Rob and stab you like a lyrical thug
Play on my broken violin
Out of tune, but still a beautiful sin.

Where we are, King. Feat Michael Jackson

2009-06-28T00:33:00.001-07:00

Where are you ?
So Michael Jackson passed on
You pretend to show interest in him?

Michael Jackson

Can it be I stayed away too long
Did I leave your mind when I was gone
It's not my thing trying to get back
But this time, let me tell you where I'm at
You don't have to worry 'cause I'm coming
Back to where I should have always stayed
And now I've heard the maybe to your story
And it's enough love for me to stay

Savior.
They make a big deal out of my lyric
Protesting it like it's black voodoo magic
Say I ain't that lyrical
They have to pray for a miracle
Everyone says they are honest
They call me two faced when I throw in my bluntness

Throw in my pen
But I won't stop unless time comes to end
Time for me to hide
All the tears that I cried
Forgetting the pain, I really tried
The king ain't dead, look how famous he is worldwide

Heaven ain't that far
Take this time to celebrate THE pop star
We are the world
you were our world, yes you still are
I wana be where you are

Michael Jackson

Can it be I stayed away too long
Did I leave your mind when I was gone
It's not my thing trying to get back
But this time, let me tell you where I'm at
You don't have to worry 'cause I'm coming
Back to where I should have always stayed
And now I've heard the maybe to your story
And it's enough love for me to stay

Michael Jackson Tribute.

2009-06-26T06:04:00.000-07:00

Savior.

Wake me up now, it must be just a dream
You are not alone, but we are alone now it seem
That p.y.t. be crying her eyes off the extreme
We be cursing those accusations and planned scheme
Silence, you hear the stranger of moscow scream
Gone too soon, I only caught a single little gleam

Let me do the moon walk
Debut off the wall, Jacksons unite on the hater talk
Don't need no criminal, his too smooth for a glock
Grab the crotch, the bass goes as billie jean's world got rock
Let them laugh and mock
He don't need to be black or white to stand out of the flock
Thrilling all you haters, 25 years as the big dog of the block
100 millions sold, even mount Everest can't do the top
Beat it perez hilton , long live the king of pop
Best entertainer, revolutionized the pop and lock

I see the man in the mirror
He lost his idol, so did the world
We are the world, now we sing along
Children, let's all keep each other strong
Liberian girl sobbing all night long
Now the king is on heaven where he belong
The good always die young, even if they do no wrong
He was invincible, changing lifes with just some simple song

Michael Jackson. Forever in us.

Michael Jackson.

2009-06-25T22:49:00.000-07:00

The King of Pop has passed on, but his legacy shall remain for decades to come.
It came as a major surprise to everyone, with his 50 concert in O2 arena coming up.
To be honest, Michael Jackson played a big part in my growing up.
Yea, he had an influence on me being who I am today.
From his electrifying dance moves to his showmanship, I use to imitate his moonwalk and most of his dance moves, emulating the energy he projects when he is performing and such.
Let's just say, I feel really sad, not just cause of his death, but for everyone around him.

Like it or not, michael jackson gave an estimate amount of 23 million to charity. Yes, 23 MILLION, and yet, people view him as a child molester, when he was trailed twice, and found NOT GUILTY. So STOP WITH THE ACCUSATION.

Thriller, the biggest selling album OF ALL TIME. Sold an estimate amount of 100 MILLION to date. Can you top that ? no, you can't.

His music touched all of our hearts, constantly trying to find the goodness in a corrupted and violent world. From love to heartbreak to just plain crazy dance moves, Michael Jackson - IS the complete performer, and the KING OF POP.

After so many people betraying him, accusing him, still he NEVER once turning the fans down.

We humans are a selfish race. Yes, this will totally dominate headlines, while other people might be asking why is michael jackson's death worth headline instead of whats happening in Iran?
Let me tell you why, cause I don't give a shit about Iran.
I care about michael jackson, cause he was a part of my childhood. So yes, I think he deserves this send off by the media.

Now, onto the BAD PART of this blog.
Perez hilton, I never liked you, now, I sincerely hope you do suffer in your life.
Hollywood gossip blogger posted this on his website when the mj's news broke out.

You insensitive motherfucker.
I hope someone beats you up good someday.

Let me tell you why I cried so hard for the loss of Michael Jackson.
Like him or not, his music was one of a kind.
No autotune, No any fancy remix. Just plain good heart warming n beat bassing melody.
If you can't appreciate michael jackson song, you don't appreciate music.
Just log onto facebook or any website, EVERYONE is talking about Michael Jackson.
We are talking about someone who hasn't had an album out in more than 8 years, but still be able to remain relevant to his fan base.

Michael jackson, you inspired me, and I thank you for that. Fuck the haters, We remain loyal to you. The good do die young, Michael Jackson - King of Pop, lives on in us.

Kiss me already. II

2009-06-21T17:22:00.000-07:00

Keep on going
Keep the love flowing
Right, that's the spot
Let me start it off the top
Planning to slide down your hips
May our kiss be the last taste of one another's lips

It don't get any better than a stolen kiss
Set my soul on fire with eternal bliss
Make love to you right now, give you a taste
Let me brush the hair away from your face
Drown into each other's eyes with nothing left
I leaned in as you took a deep breath

Closed our eyes as our lips met
The feeling, was out of the expect
Our soul went warm, body felt tingly
Three seconds lasted for eternity

Heartbeat rose as we split apart
Have I stolen your breath
or was it a stolen heart
For someone just like you
Making me feel the way you do

Got me thinking about you everywhere I turn
Your kiss is the torch where all my love burns
I can't explain how you make me feel
Are these just words, or is love secretly real.

Savior.

Kiss Me Already.

2009-06-21T17:19:00.000-07:00

I like talking to you because I know that you love listening to me, or is it that you like watching my lips move? And when I catch you watching me so intensely, I smile, then look away.

I know that you didnt really pay any attention to what I've just been saying, because your eyes were too busy feasting on me. All you heard were soft whispers from my voice, that tingled something inside you.

It's ok, I don't have to talk, I just want to look at you, while you let your imagination flow.
Be careful though, excitement can be overwhelming, even though one can't be blamed for such indulgence.

Why don't you get alittle closer, I know you want to. Take my soft hands into yours and feel. Do you like the warmth of them? Move your lips closer to mine, slowly, do you feel excited or lustful?

(to be continued.....sometimes it's not the destination but the journey that's most sensual)

By Harddeep.

I want revenge.

2009-06-20T21:26:00.000-07:00

Savior.

I want revenge
My volcano mind is ready to erupt
I get revenge
Won't stop til I'm creatively bankrupt
I want revenge
Obsessed with it got my moral corrupt
I get revenge
Get some insurance, prepare to feel the destruct
I'm talking, so don't you dare interrupt

Now they talking like they up to par
Air headed like the Ronaldo saga
Let the savior share you a little story
This haters once tried to hurt me
I swiped them up and got them in plastic surgery
Knees on the ground pleading a plea
Sorry guys, I don't feel no mercy

Don't give a shit about who's who
Call 911, cause you don't know what to do
Cry help for emergency rescue
Can't even talk no shit when I'm through
Run, but can't hide from my voodoo

Stuck in the needle
You be bleeding from the middle
Say what i want, you ain't worth my rap
It''s me against all of you, let's keep it like that
Disappear from the world, not locatable in Google map
Me vs u, no contest, too much of a gap

I don't hate you
I just want to destroy you
That's why i don't toy with you
Smile all you want
Watch me slap you right at the front
I don't care of your an alpha male or a cunt
Dare you to come reply to my rant

It's no longer a gift, it's now a curse
Pray to Lord tell em about my verse
Cause things are soon to be worse
Holy water ain't no remedy for reverse
Get the slayers, but it wont be the first
Silver bullet doesn't do the deed just
Run now before you find out vengeance does

I want revenge.

Bad guys have all the fun.

2009-06-17T14:01:00.000-07:00

Ever hated something about me? I'm sure you do. From my reckless ways in life to my harsh words for almost everyone.
I'm back on my asshole side, and it feels good. As off late I haven't been doing much, so what the hell, must as well just be an asshole again.
It is so fun, I missed it a lot for sure.

Just facing the consequences from my latest diss. 'post this on facebook', the funny thing is, more than 2 people thought I was dissing them ! hahaha, funny shit.

Nothing much has changed, I'm still the same. For the people I like, I still love you much as usual.
Only for the people that I dislike, I'm sure you can careless about me too, but I'll just take you as inspiration for new ideas. Is that cool ? Of course it's cool, not like you can do anything about it anyway.

Time to play the bad guy all over again. hehe

Why are you so obsessed with me.

2009-06-17T08:51:00.000-07:00

This is cool.
Let keep it old school
Please reply me, let's make this a duel
When I see a fire burning, I must add in the fuel
Like a collector I steal and kill for the jewel
Maybe sometimes words turn heartless and cruel
So keep it hard, we don't go with no rule
Why are you so obsessed, makes you look like a fool
Pick on someone your own size,don't be a tool

Someone had to sin to today
Why not be me, you be my prey
Maybe I'm just being mean, I'll end up in hell someday
Maybe I'm just delusional, sold my conscience away
Writing love, heartbreak, hatred, all ideas for me to play
Don't take this personally, it's not my fault Savior's world is grey
Picking back up where I left off, you were just in my way
Funny Funny, I think these words don't hurt, their just plain cliche

Are you obsessed with me?
You think I'm checking out your breast
I see you stalking how I dressed
You need rehab, your plain obsessed
I read what you wrote, i ain't impressed
Don't talk shit to me, give that a rest
You would not get to me even if you tried your best
Move on from me, that's just what I suggest

Don't talk to me, unless your here doing an arrest
Your lifestyle of doing nothing is getting you stressed
Your obsession need to be second guessed
You ain't no Mesiah, your just a pest
Deep down, your disturbed and depressed
Another day of schizo, another scar sinned on my chest

Post this on facebook.

2009-06-17T08:50:00.000-07:00

F-acebook me now, post this shit up facebook
U-nlike any beautiful poem, she ugly in all her look
C-hange the style, fob, goth, emo, you can't make a cent even if you hook
K-awaiiii, no bitch, your fucking ugly

Y-ou should know your role, don't be a wanabe
O-h my god, stop stalking me, I can sense your envy
U-nofficially a slut, your just ugly and lonely

U-ncle boyfriend chasing, you make it your life story
G-irl trying hard to lose her unwanted virginity
L-et me erases that topless image burns in my memory
Y-ou think I'm going too hard on you? go and cry to mommy

B-etter know who you are, those pictures better stop
I-'m trying to warn you before I wipe you up with my mop
T-ake a moment and read the hidden message from the top
C-hange that status, cause you ain't cool, your a fashion flop
H-ope you understand the encryption that I'm about to drop

Interview with the vampire.

2009-06-16T04:44:00.001-07:00

Tell me I'm clever,

Tell me I'm kind,

Tell me I'm talented,

Tell me I'm cute,

Tell me I'm sensitive,

Graceful and wise,

Tell me I'm perfect--

But tell me the truth.

Way I Are.

2009-06-13T12:16:00.000-07:00

Paradise Fall.

2009-06-12T14:13:00.001-07:00

Savior.

Rap is so basic,
Just flow me with the music,
And here comes the lyric
Love is just an addict,
Can't get away with love sick,
Don't leave me in heartache.

Look into your eyes,
Now baby, I'm in paradise
That music syncing our flow
Love love love baby,
Kiss me under the mistletoe

Baby please
Hold me, complete my masterpiece
Baby girl,
Now let it snow,
But don't let me go

That little box under the tree
A little love note written by me
A little love gift from Santa
On going with our love saga

So sweet
So sing along,
Again with the repeat
Bring it back with the beat

Piano jazzing with the base
Kiss me passionately, give me a taste
Lets not let the moment go a waste
Now girl, your melting to my freestyle
I'll send chills back up to you with my smile
Just a little bit of romance, makes it worthwhile

It's half past three
Leave the night up to me
Lite you up like a Christmas tree
Love you, just like you love me.

Secret Diary of a London Call Girl.

2009-06-12T14:12:00.001-07:00

Savior.

He was just a boy
Treated him with love like my toy
After all love is just a marketing ploy
Today center of my pillow
Tomorrow say goodbye to your shadow
Piece by piece
Kiss by kiss

Next week same time
Your place or mine
It's all the same
Just a client with a different name
Don't question my heart
I just did my part
Wasn't meant to be from the start

Book me a room or an resort
I'll be the girlfriend escort
Just don't come up short
I'm your secret discretion
Experience makes me top of my profession
Leave you feeling special after one session
But you're just another man, hides my confession
Wonder if the wife will raise the question
Where is the hubby going to release his obsession

Call me a whore
Take a sneak peak in my drawer
Bondage, fetish, even hardcore
I'm the girlfriend everyone adores
Unrealistic fantasy fulfilled behind closed doors
Show me the money, and I'll show you where to put yours
Name me the prostitute, the call girl, bet you could think of more

Need a companion, call me
Payed to satisfy all your inquiry
Just keep this between you and me
You are reading the call girl's diary.

Mom.

2009-06-12T14:11:00.001-07:00

I know, I've written alot before
But now, when the ideas are gone
Time for something that comes from the inside

Savior.

Mommy, this is my confession
No matter what I did, you still showed me affection
Passing down what you knew to me, mother son chain reaction
But I never showed you my full appreciation
For standing by me no matter what was my action
I was selfish to only think of my own satisfaction
Hope it's not too late for me to undo the subtraction
Paying back my debts to you in this uneven equation
So this verse is for you, my dedication.

These words are being born from a broken heart
Not just love, a mother's love is always the main part
As I was packing my bags preparing to depart
Memory of how you taught me to draw and paint the art
All your effort for an only child, hoping he'll turn out smart
Sometimes I just wish in life I could hit restart
Give mommy a hug everyday, bless her heart

Your kid was playful, so he lived on the edge
Drugs, sex, money was mainly the life of his college
Forgetting all the lessons, Ignoring all the knowledge
Passed down by you, betraying his own pledge

I can't write much now, been lost in life
Lost for emotions, lost for words, no passion to strive
Recalling how you rushed over to see me when I went under the knife
The moment I opened my eyes from surgery
First thing I saw was dear mommy
Everything mommy did, it was for me
That warms my heart to a thousand degree

Hope my words are able to scream out loud
How I want to do you proud
Mommy is not here right now, So I see her in every cloud
Always believe an outcast like me would standout from the crowd
I'll clean up myself and make you proud
This is a promise, savior vowed.

Schiophrenia. feat Rem, Averira.

2009-06-12T14:08:00.000-07:00

Hi sir, Sorry to say
you have been diagnosed with Schizophrenia

I guess now it's time to embrace the name
Savior, now Imma destroy the game
Kill you bitches, trademark with my fame
Life now will never be the same
ever again
this is just the voices going insane
words inspiration comes from the pain
Now I'm gonna infect all you with the venomous rain

Presenting Rem, tell em

You see the shadows coming, you see the monsters stare,
But its only you who sees them, but you tell others "BEWARE!!"

You think of crazed things, like demons, suicide, and worse,
You think of love and murder, but then again you feel no remorse.

Your body is made of uncanny movements, you scream, and yell, and twitch,
You feel your brain cells fry, like an unseen computer glitch.

There is something wrong in your head, you speak in a monotonous voice,
Your dispassionate, you appear apathetic, but then again you have no choice.

Your friends and family greet you, but you just run and hide,
You care to visit know one, you act like a loved one just died.

Your brain no-longer functions, you cannot reason, you just lie in bed,
Your life has been cut short, you have Schizophrenia, and are now brain dead.

I take great pleasure to introduce - Aveira -

In my nightmares

I am alone in the dark

I am in my room and there is this sound

this voice I can't remember

telling me to turn around

be careful

and there are these eyes

staring, cold and dead

these things fly around me

laying eggs in the bed,

they are gross, disgusting

they crawl on my skin and I scream

until I awake

scared, lonely, my heart pounding

all alone in the dark.

Savior.

You see
You hear
Feel the fear
The voices come to me
The voices talk to me
Now the shadow in the mirror walks to me

An old lady in need, should I save her
Maybe I should kill her, leave her children moaning in tear
So many thought with a twist
My mind was long gone, it don't exist
Should I give you my hugs and kisses
Resisting the urge to break you into pieces

But I ain't working for the devil
The torment I cause deserves a lower burning level
Skinning off your nails, I promise to be gentle
Squeeze your eyes, now it be my drinking bottle
Strap your neck, reliving my childhood poodle
Shower your bloody body from the kettle
Burn baby burn, your scream be my fantasy's title
Maybe I've gone insane, just a little

Just a little.

Bye Bye, Thanks for the memories.

2009-06-11T04:43:00.000-07:00

Ronaldo is leaving for Real Madrid this summer. Thoughts ? Oh sad and sorrow.
Ronaldo is leaving for Real Madrid this summer for a fee of 80 mil pounds, which converts to RM 365 Mil. Thoughts ? Oh, he will be missed, give me Ribery's agent number.

With skills, looks, show boating, he is the perfect trick pony with an arrogant ego that is well deserved. Just like all pretty things in this world, they don't last. Remember how sad was it when Beckham left for Madrid? and yet, we won 4 epl titles, champs league, fa cup, carling cup, world club cup, community shield. While madrid....won nothing.

Just like any other beautiful summer fling, Ronaldo was indeed, just a fling. Loyalty was always an issue for you, so for an unloyal soldier to leave the camp, we should rejoice, and say thank you for the memories.

Like a relationship, if the girl is unloyal, squeeze as much out of her before leaving him. It is someone else's problem now.

Beautifully Done Pick Up.

2009-06-09T13:12:00.000-07:00

Gimmick Approach

A good opening line that I used to use in random parties is by holding a paper and a pen while approaching the target. Why? - The music probably be loud as hell, and probably everyone will be talking, so that will make me stand out.

Going to pick up a girl is like trying to buy a slim fitting jeans right before the store closes. If the girl is not giving you the response you like, cut the bait and move on with the next target.

This is one of the ways to open up a girl. Take a piece of note, and scribble this on it.

"Hi," I'm taking a survey on bad lines. Circle which one you think is the worst."

"1. `Come here often, sugar pants?'
"2. `Hey, baby. Can we go out in the cold and hug?'
"3. `Hi. I'm taking a survey on bad lines.'"

90% of the time it gets a laugh, if it doesn't, move on. Why want a girl who can't laugh take a joke.
After she laughs, ask her to tell you the worse lines that has been used on her. Then your in for a conversation, simple as that !

Even if you get rejected, you might learn that maybe some of your opening lines are the ones that ladies think of as being worst lines !

The Direct Approach

Usually, the waitresses / bar tenders are wayyyy more attractive than the customers in a venue, so if you were planning to make an impression on her, this will be the way.

"I don't mean to interrupt you while you are working, but I just wanted you to know that I think you're one of the most attractive women I've ever seen, and I'm really glad I worked up the courage to introduce myself to you."

Tell her your name, ask her hers, and then let her get back to work.

Chances are, she will remember you. Girls like guys who have balls. Be wrong and strong.
For me, I am unapologetic and I give no mercy.
I used to tell people to cancel off on their dates or even family with a simple text message reply.
If a girl is planning on canceling out on our date cause she has to go to work or needs to study, I reply a simple text message like

- Call in sick, You'll have more fun with me -

Why with the short messages ? Guys usually ramble on and on, without getting to the point. Ever wonder why the billboards and advertising people put in hours of work just to come up with the ONE LINE ? right, people rather read one powerful line than an essay just to get to the point.

So always do this, one line if you are asking the girl out. Don't go all one line throughout the whole relationship tho, that's just stupid......

Flirts

Okay, obviously I can't talk much about body language here, But I can share some nice lines for you guys to try it out !

If you want to pick up someone in public, you need to keep your distance. It is a dangerous world out there, girls will naturally keep their distance with strangers.

So if you were to open a girl, you start with a simple compliment

- I like your hat -
girl - aww, thanks -

Pause. 1.

-I like your shoes-
girls - thx -

Pause, look at her sides, smile and say it with as much humor as possible
- Come to think of it, I like everything about u ! -

If she doesn't laugh, then just pull out of the set. The set is going nowhere. She needs to loosen up, her guard is up against you.

-My name is james, so whats your name miss perfection?'

Once she tells you her name, you say

- I can tell that you are a woman with good taste, know how I know that ? -
- how? -
- Cause you've been laughing at all my jokes -

She probably laugh the loudest this time, hit iron when it's hot !
- Give me five -
Put up ur palm for the 'give me five' movement, while she replies you with her palm too
heres the sneaky trick - Cross your fingers with her fingers when you guys are high fiving.
Get what I mean ? it is like you guys are holding hands, fingers crossing each other.

Why? This is a compliance test. If she grabs onto your palm like your grabbing onto hers, she is physically comfortable with you, if her high five is weak, your probably riding your luck and luck might run out soon !

That is all for today, I am SURE many people will give me shit about this blog post, its either loved or hated at the end. So there you go.

Don't hate the player, Hate the game.

The Hiatus Continues.

2009-06-09T08:59:00.000-07:00

I wonder why, I haven't been able to think of anything to write lately!
If you have ANY ideas AT ALL about what I should be writing about, drop down a message on the chat box!

And I have ABSOLUTELY nothing to blog about! I always said that my blog will never be about what I did in my day or like other snoozer blogs about hows their life.
But sadly, there is nothing that's coming to mind lately.
Not even a piece that I've read is worth remixing.

Sorry, I have failed you as a blogger.

Here, for what it's worth, here are some scribbles that I manage to write.
It is from a friend of mine who enjoys writing 'love songs' and lovy dovy poem.
To be honest, I think he is lyrically weak, maybe some girls will like it.
So here it is - Steve's Farewell.

Steve.

There's no more tears to cry,
I feel nothing,
But a hollow chest inside.
Just trying to decide,
How I keep holding on,
How I can't banish this feeling,
Make it gone,
Honestly what have I done wrong,
why am I writing
this soulless song.

I’m too far gone,
my friends tell…
So here I am
my last farewell…
here I am
an empty shell
here in Bethany,
my heart fell.
Ill take this chance to allow,
I’ll take my leave
my final bow.

Savior.

Hey steve,
These are words of hurt
Wipe off tears, dust off the dirt
I'll be chasing another skirt
Broken hearted walkin in a lone desert
Hole in my chest, love on my shirt

She said she's heaven sent
Truth prevail, words she never meant
Tears be coming, I need an umbrella tent
Did you really dig it till this extent
Burry my memories with a sealed cement
I'm tired, but the scars don't break the torment

Now say with me bro
Let it go
Let it go
Partnered by my lone shadow
Shes shallow turned hollow
So I say
Now you know
Now you know

Heading for a heartbroken surgery
Sewing me back up, it's an emergency
Revive up a brand new me
Don't want to recognize her when shes on tv
Ain't passing by our spot the lemon tree
Craved love forever, but there was never a we
This is my last farewell
Savior's finale.

Sad Songs Playlist.

2009-06-08T21:06:00.000-07:00

Hey people! if you are feeling down, no problem, I got just what you need.
Just leave this page on and enjoy the music !

You are coming on too strong.

2009-06-06T13:21:00.000-07:00

People usually worry about whether the guy/girl they are dating or chasing are just not that into them. Well, I am here to acknowledge you guys that, words always lie, but body language never.

All so often, you see a guy coming on too strong to a girl, how ?

1. When you are walking, your hands is on her waist, when shes just walking normally with her hands free from you. This is a classic sign of how the guy is giving the girl too much attention, the girl will either feel overwhelmed by the attention given or she is going to get bored of you soon enough. Guys who always have their hands around their girl's waist, are the guys who are either dating the girl with sex as the main motivation / insecure / showing off.

2. When you are eating, the guy sits right beside you, even when there's only 2 of you, and he could had sat opposite facing you. BIG MISTAKE guys. Why would you want to sit beside her ? cause you can get in more physical contact ? Wrong.
During meal time, it is one important time to bond, have some solid conversations. By sitting side by side with her, when the whole restaurant everyone is sitting opposite of each other, you have lowered your value, and definitely look DESPERATE.

3. Well, okay, what you say might show how stupid stupid are you. When a guy / girl says 'I'll wait for you'. Because you just rejected them. You need to find the closest exit, and run towards it ! A guy / girl who said such things, are definitely INEXPERIENCE and does not know how to treat you !

Imagine, if that person expects you to like him/her, because they WAITED for you, won't that just makes you look like a fool ? they are implying, 'If I can't get you by heart, I'll just wait till you give up on rejecting me'. And there are more than 90% of guys out there who think that line actually shows loyalty and the girl might get emotionally touched. Scary eh.

4. When you are out with her shopping or just chilling, please, try your best not to follow her EVERYWHERE she goes. I mean, seriously, have some common sense, if she wanted to date someone who follows her 24/7, she would had gotten a dog. If you are out shopping with her, don't just stupidly stand there while she shops, you shop too. Remember, it's an outing, you are not her bitch.

5. Make the decisions. If the girl ask 'so where you wana go eat', and you have no idea whats her favorite food, here's the trick. Answer with your favorite food, and she will probably be 'no, I hate that', this will be your chance to say, 'well, okay, we'll just go to your choice, I'm not familiar with this place'. See, it was YOU who decided who got to decide where to go to eat. Trust me, small details like these matters.

Sometimes the girl will be all decisive, it is your job to support her and say 'let's do it, if it sucks, you have me to suffer with you.' Cause at the end, the food...does not matter, it is the conversation that does.

If you are always 'whatever, we do anything you like' then yes, you are definitely getting annoying.

6. Stop asking her whether she is mad at you, if she is, you will know. Her life is not just about you.

7. If she/he says something about the past, such as ex bf / gf, and you do feel the details given is abit too much, do not just put on a frown face and get pissed off. Do this.
Say politely, 'well, that's alright, but is it okay that we leave those stuff out, I rather not talk about it, I want to talk about you more.'

8. Do not brag. I swear, MOST GUYS DO THIS. Such as putting on your msn nickname 'Omg, my baby today gave me a gift, i love my baby, shes soooo good to me' Mistake. Privacy alert. She is dating you, not a celebrity.

9. Not remembering how to be yourself. If she slaps you or does anything really rude to you, you have the right to walk off. Let your partner know, you are not their whipping bitch, you deserve just as much as they do.

10. Don't try too hard, if you initiate a kiss, you go 90, she goes 10. Remember that.

Hiatus - Rebuild | Reborn.

2009-06-04T13:22:00.000-07:00

After finally killing off Savior in my latest writing ( cause the writings lately were getting really bad ). I decided to take a hiatus from posting any writing I cook up. You guys can enjoy reading XiaXue or Dear Darling or some pathetic blog that possesses the cure to insomnia.

So for these days in my hiatus, I shall remain in solitude, only to go out to get food, or to have a smoke. Regardless, my days in my room will be filled with working outs and studying. Need to regain my focus after weeks of slacking.

Wait for it, there's new writing coming up soon and better gossip stories.

Every night
I sit here, thinking
Rhyming
Writing
Stories after fantasies
Imagination after creation
Only to avoid what I am afraid
Trying to block out what others said

I am sad deep down
I am happy cause no one sees my frown
With thoughts of me being happy
Inspiring post after post, if only you could see
When will I be myself again
When will I be dancing in the rain
At the end, it matters.
At the end, everything matters

Everyone writes me off
No, no one ever wrote me off
Me myself wrote myself off
Depression managment
Self disappointment
Murdered them all
The injured savior
Polluted
Corrupted
Infected
I need to destroy me
No sacrifice, no victory

Virus inside me, hear my warns
Good and Evil shall lock horns
Now, Savior Reborns.

Savior Suicides.

2009-06-03T21:31:00.000-07:00

Now with the head pound and pound
Room spinning round and round
If only I could disappear, body nowhere to be found
Paints coming off the walls, darkness starts to surround
Black White with the trail of red blood all around

Voices loud as they yell
Mind started to swell
Nothings gona ring a bell
Suicide is so easy to spell
Maybe I should call someone and tell
But she's busy, so she said farewell
So I packed my bag and left my hostel
Took the car and checked into a motel
Haven't said a word as silence dwell
Followed by my shadows, destined for hell
The burning flames was what i smell

They say no savior, you're a monster
Would you mind if I kill you now sir
I will rape and kill your girlfriend later
let her choose the position that she prefer
I have a sickness, but it's your blood I stir
A little hair here n there, I see the hair is from her

Something is wrong with my mind, it has a bug
Declared insanity, now I walk with a smug
A free pass to kill any nerd, any thug
Pluck their hair now they sit as my rug
Do you still love me for me? I need a hug
It's our secret, my writing was all the time the drug
Writing under influence, now I'm pulling everyone's plug

Enough, I've been lied
Too much tears have been cried
Angels are no longer by my side
So I took this cab for a ride
I shot him in the back, he had no place to hide
Life is hard, harder when you never tried
but it's too late now, so I plan my suicide
Tip tow my way till to the top, feel that breeze outside
Look down to the traffic, if only a gun was then provide
I want to fly, then die, be famous worldwide
Headline the world, the 1st guy to suicide with poem written beside
Let's hope I feel alive soon, when the cars and me collide
Head split open, brain sprayed and divide
Finally I walk with the voices in me side by side

Try Me.

2009-06-02T03:11:00.000-07:00

Thx babe for the words,
Now listen to my poetry
I'm so touched that every word was for me
I see that you are still checking me out
It is your love that I can't live without
All these rhymes just blowing up my brain
Oh no, Savior is going insane
After reading dear darling,
My shit got lame
I'm now focused on our love to tame
It's fine, I'm now working towards rising to fame
Now on everyone thinks of us when they mention my name
Repeating my verse again n again
Cause my words are out by popular demand
Infinite resourse, read the lines in the sand
One day we'll be making grand after grand
Oopz, we better keep it simple for Uncle Sam
Don't want him to not understand
We do it like this like no one else can
I saw my baby naked today, now my dick gave a solid stand
Shit, I'm off topic again,
That's not the plan
My baby ain't just a girl,
she the certified ten
I'll fuck her hard, soft, positions that malaysia ban
Can't stop now, the verses come n come
I can feel your wetness dripping, river soon to become
Kiss me on the neck, drunk on my words, alcoholic like rum
We just want to have some fun
So come on Sam, tell me how you made your imaginary girl cum
Don't be repeating the same phrase, makes you sound dumb
Never come close to getting some
Only time you saw female genital was when you popped out of your mum
Must be wet as hell, sip it up yum yum
God, all these words coming into my mind,
I'm getting pump!

Green is asking me whether this is gona be posted
Wana see how Uncle Sam's image get toasted
Verse too hot, reading it gets you raosted

I'm done
This is one sided one on one
Scaring tat coward planning to run
He had balls, but his a cunt
Now his done

That's why they call me boy wonder
My words are the arsenal, Wenger like the gunner
What do you want me to do ? I can't stop when I'm speedin
Never cross my mind to even consider deletin
These shots are too accurately aimed and perfect timing
A normal freestyle will outperform your dear darling

You need to stop me Green,
I'm running on rechargeable battery
Never stop till i get enough mentality
Just like I want Green's mouth on me
While I came to party
So I be drunk on the Hennesse
Writing down all her fantasy
Unlike you bro, I turn her into reality
Hold on, I need to cum on, Green wants to if you seek Amy
Now all these love from me it's all free
Top of the world now, so I'm gona let you losers be
Special access to her busty body
Get to do what I want like I'm the VIP
Leave no trails, I move like I'm the M.I.B.
His writing more destructive than the tsunami
Now savior got the solution is too easy
I just give a call to big mommy
Tell her to come and use her fat ass to blocky
Stop all the thunder and windy
Giving uncle sam to live and lose his virginity
Let someone touch his dick, not him doing the sucky sucky
Uncle sam, better let someone do the fucky fucky
Orelse the only person who touch ur privates is ur daddy
'Come on sam, let daddy help u go pee pee'
Holy crap, tat mental image got me going freeeze
This rhyme has gotten way beyond PG
Wonder if all these will come back to me

Believe in yourself.

2009-06-01T12:29:00.000-07:00

Head till the toe
Different from what you know
It's too soon to see how i turn out
Too fast to judge what I'm about

Just wait for me to transform
I'll rack up a storm
Give me time while I find my form
Lonely to getting swarm

I'm not gona believe what you say
saying looks don't matter, personality all the way
I'm not gona believe what she say
saying someone will love me for me, night and day
I'm not gona believe what he say
saying I need to believe in cupid and pray
I'm gona be alone, while others enjoy the buffet

I know you guys mean well
But it was hard on me
I learned the hard way
To ignore what they say
Finding a way to escape from this dismay

I believe there's a way
Someone will love me no matter what they say
Someone will kiss me even if I had a bad hair day
People always judge the cover of the book
So many styles, so many genres, so many look

Now they stare
They can't say no more, stoned in their chair
Cause I found my look, found who I am in there
I am myself, no matter where I go, what I wear

Looking through my pictures, I ask what is this?
That's the boy who no one will ever wants to kiss
Now who is this?
That's the boy who grew up who everyone wants a piece
Same person inside
Just a different on the outside

I never believed what they said
They lied
I ain't ugly
Why did I even cried

They lied
I'm sure I can find a bride
I am me, nothing to hide

Love me or hate me now
I believe their logic got denied
Whether I'm ugly or beauty, not for them to decide
The old me never died
Still savior all the time,
Just look at the picture slide

Crack A Bottle. Remix - Mtv Movie Awards.

2009-06-01T12:26:00.000-07:00

Eminem.
So crack a bottle, let your body waddle
Don’t act like a snobby model you just hit the lotto
Uh-oh Uh-oh, bitch3s hopping in my Tahoe
Got one riding shotgun and no not one of them got gloves
Now where’s the rubbers? Whose got the rubbers?
I notice there’s so many of them
and there’s really not that many of us.
And ladies love us, my posse’s kicking up dust.
It’s on till the break of dawn
and we’re starting this party from dusk

Savior.
So I'm here remixing em's song
He be cracking more bottles after smelling Bruno's thong
Worse than twilight winning, what the hell is wrong
High school musical beating out Slumdog, how was that done
Mtv stop bleeping me out, I'm just having some fun
You can't bleep my freestyle lyrics, so suck it cunt
This meaningless award should not even had begun
I find meaning in checking out Venessa Hudson
Looking good today, let me get a crack at that bun
So I guess you playing hard to get hun

Miley, call me when you're 18, I'm gona tap that
You're still a kid, I prefer a full grown cat
So Megan fox, where your sexy ass at
With a body like that, how can I not mention you on my track
Call me after the show, we'll have a little sexy chat
Now MTV, this is what you get for messing with Britney, don't ever forget

1st poem from Green.

2009-05-31T15:50:00.000-07:00

Green.

This is for my baby
guilty for driving me crazy
for he is always ready
sights set on to rock your body

Crossing the friendship line
taking me to wine and dine
rock it to cloud nine
now we stop to define

The others chase him to be
but he is now with me
secretly I am his wannabe
he said, you are perfect as you can be

No baby, I ain't perfect
just trying to be a little prefect
checking on you and repairing your defect
while you drug me with unknown effects

Nothing more you will need to prove
you blueprinting your move
and fly in like a dove
infecting me the affectionate love

For what am I to say
Who am i to ask you to stay
because you have lead me astray
with you heart that gives no dismay

My baby, we are the best
our words bury others to rest
your little sissy writing fails to impress
here is a piece of us that you'll never detest.

I have no idea why you want to call yourself green, but sure..
this is the 1st poem written by Green to her boy.

Heartless. feat Kanye West.

2009-05-30T23:26:00.000-07:00

In the night I hear 'em talk, the coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road he lost his soul
To a woman so heartless
How could you be so heartless?
How could you be so heartless?

Told me that she's gona stay with me
True love then, now I disagree
She's cheating behind me
Secret phone calls at three
Late outings without me

Text messages when I'm in the shower
Laundry bag filled with male workout towel
Cupboard hidden with special delivered flower
Checking your email every hour
Remembering important dates that are not our

Telling your friends that you're in love
Love marks on your neck from your beloved
But you still tell me I'm the only guy you think of
Covering up your trails, watching your hand and glove

So now I know you cheated

Mission to break my heart completed

Belief in true love in me defeated
Betrayal story was then repeated
Now our arguments are getting heated
What did I do to be mistreated
Theory that your heart was then deleted
It fills me up with emotions, I can't be seated

so now I know your a cheat
It's all in the moment with the heat
Souring all the memories that were sweet
Me and you shall never meet
Me and you will never meet
Now I'm screaming heartless at my music sheet.

In the night I hear 'em talk, the coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road he lost his soul
To a woman so heartless
How could you be so heartless?
How could you be so heartless?

Bad guys that we root for.

2009-05-28T09:46:00.000-07:00

Okay, for once, this ain't a writing post. We are here to celebrate the ongoing bad guys on shows and movies that so often stole our hearts and outshine the good guys!

1. Joker.

Yes, the king of the villains, Joker himself. A psycho ward escape, who does not care about money, more of to causing as much chaos...for the fun of it. Best villain ever.

2. Harley Quinn

The female partner of joker. Started off as a nurse for the joker, but ended up going insane and falling in love with the Joker, helping him break out of the hospital and jail.

3. Venom

Admit it, you watched spiderman 3 just for venom. Who cares about sandman. Venom is one of the most indestructible villains till date.

4. Mystique

Now onto the sexy villains. Who can forget mystique in X-men ?! Being able to shape shift, no different from T-400 in Terminator. Just that she is way hotter.

5. Catwoman

If you love the pussycat dolls, you will love catwoman.

6. K.I.D.

Ahh, K.I.D. from Detective Conan. A bad version of detective conan himself. Girls just love the idea of him, getting excited every episode that he makes a special appearance.

Onto the funny villains!

7.Dr.Cortex

Dr.cortex from Crash Bandicoot ! A villain that just REFUSES TO DIE ! after sooo many games.

8. Simon Cowell

Admit it, you love him. A show is not going to be a show without simon cowell.

9. Count Olaf

Count Olaf from Series of Unfortunate Events. Played by Jim Carey, if you haven't watched it, you should. Jim carey plays multiple characters trying to get the children's inheritance money.
Still my favourite money till date.

10. Baikinman and Dokin-chan

From one of my favourite shows as a kid, ANPANMAN. Baikinman is the king of viruses, totaly cute and adorable to watch as he always have this big smile lol.

11. Team Rocket.

Bet you've forgotten about them by now. Team rocket, one of the cutest villains ever !
I always wished there's an episode that Jesse and James would fall in love with each other !!

Dracula.

2009-05-26T20:44:00.001-07:00

Savior.

Love is not worth the withstand
thousand then thousand of years
It is something I will never understand
Losing you, I can't give you no tears

One bite and you feel the numbness in my heart
come with Dracula, rule with my power
I know nothing about love, feel nothing from the start
Soulless since the dark hour

Darkness in my shadows
Venom in my blood
Can't see no reflection, I'm hollow
Prince of darkness, evil in my vain flood

Pinz.

Flowing time,
Fiery sky;
Does God play dime?
No one knows.

Strong heart, strong soul
Seem so impenetrable.
Even more stubborn is the want
To love gently with a whole heart.

Wants to love you,
Wants to hold you;
But I can't
Have God forsake me?

No, my dear.
I am here, for you.
Gentle but not weak,
Let me cast a light into your darkness.

No, my love.
I have love you too much.
I will not let you,
We are of different world.

It does not matter,
I hear your heart calling.
Cast off your fear,
For I am coming here.

No! Take me off now,
For I can suffer no longer.
My love is complete now
I know God is here.

God is always here, my dear
That is why I am here
For you, for now and forever
Rest well, my love now and ever.

Money is everything.

2009-05-26T20:43:00.001-07:00

Savior.

Hear the sound.
It go Ka Ching - Ka Ching
Money ain't a thing
Money is everything
Make that girl shake that thing
Date a porn star for summer fling
Makeover Susan Boyle so it be bearable to watch her sing
Wanksta to gansta with a little shiny bling
Got angles trading in their silver wing
So they get a little taste of tingting
Cost alot more for it to last till spring
Don't cheap out now, proposing with that 0.6 carat ring
No girl's gona want you, so she be sucking on my thing
Make makes everything

You say you don't like money
Most likely you don't have any
Flash Benjamin infront of your wifey
She be packing her bags, byebye hubby
I'll call you, well, not likely
She be cooking for me, don't need to get my hands dirty
Money oh Money
You see car chase me in my Lamborghini
Too fast and furious for Tokyo City

Money can fuck you up just for fun
Surgery get the girl looking the way I want
Money do the talk
Devil then walk
Jesus run run

Money got me in the danger zone
Everybody try to take my throne
Target behind me, kidnappers prone
Shoot my girl in the chest ?
It's fine, she has big silicon

But you shot my girl,
Now I'm coming after you
Burn you
Drown you
Chop you up
So much I could do
Money bribing the cops and Dr.Who
Fake autopsy get away with your murder
Whoop-Dee-Doo
The one who laughs last is the fool
I got my poker face on calm and cool
Take over your family, now they caged in my zoo
I love to milk your milf, hear her moo
Stop with the violence, the image is through
Savior is here to rescue you
Money is here to rescue you.

Same Psycho Life.

2009-05-25T20:15:00.000-07:00

Damn man, everywhere I go
Same shitty life, nothing new
Smile all you want, you always knew
You can have a different style
Same old shit life all this while

I'm looking at people, reading my suicide note
Reviewing, commenting like it was just something I wrote
Enjoying all my lines, admiration with a quote
Never know all words are encrypted to slit their throat
Call me a writer like we are on the same sinking boat

Shh, I pray for love and ride my luck
I get her sucking on me in my truck
Giving me head, while I aim where to struck
Same shitty life, my soul is still black
Venom in my vain, masterminding my attack
every sick note is more addicting than crack
soon as I pass out, wake up with a new word stack
I'll eat Davy Jones when I'm done with jack

Read my reviews, they say words I drop are like rap
Are you guys stupid, it is rap
It's a trap
Like Santa, I lure girls to my lap
I ain't slim shady, It's savior on a strap
Same shitty life, same old writing crap
Don't compare me with poets, there's a big gap
They write for the love, I do it cause I've snap

You play with words, my words play with me
My evil calls this poetry
Everyone calls my work a beauty
Except for my doctor
They call him Dr.Phil
He prescribe me to write it out, instead to actually kill
Took away and threw away my pill

Let me accept my shitty life, nothing new
Now wheres my thrill ?
So I created Misha for my own fulfill
She's the doll that gets my secrets spill
Now wheres Dr.Phill ?
Why is him not moving, sitting still
Shh, he might be dead, time to start my drill
Escaping from this psycho ward hill
Now savior has escaped, call heroes and Small ville
I'm free, now gona keep going till you know I'm the real deal
Touch my words, can you get in my feel

First day out, I visited my high school crush
She was screaming as I showed up with a cute plush
that looks like her eyes,
Well, it was red, I figured that's the colour when she dies
Her scream and call for help got my blood rush
2 minutes later, I saw her blood gush
Must be happy to see me, her face purple in blush
Floor redder than a royal flush

Same shitty life, nothing new
I bet you be reading and hooked to the screen
How can Savior be so mean
Celebrating cause he wrote another murderer scene
I write how I feel right after I wake up, that's my routine
proud of the shitty life we live, keep this you me between
we still live to do what we do, nothing you never seen
wonder why my neighbor's grass are painted green
my lawn is brown and red, maybe cause It's filled with human spleen
Oh look, that tiara was my school's prom queen
You must be thinking this poem reminds you something from Halloween
Use that P word again, I'll wash your brain clean
I ain't classic like that, I'm just another troubled teen
Maybe this is a talent and a cursed
Well, let you readers be the first
To know things from now only gets worst
The rhymes just grow in my brain, it's gona burst
Drink the reviews to cure my thirst

Same old shitty life, nothing new
Smile all you want, you always knew
My words are coming to get you.

The Ventriloquist.

2009-05-24T15:15:00.000-07:00

AHHHHHH

Now you scream bitch
That's for spoiling my scheme snitch
Eyes looking at me like I'm out of character
Stay still, or I'll chop you off faster
Blood drops makes the circle bigger
I could kill you now, when you prefer
I shall dig your eyes out
Cry blood and scream that shout
Throw your undead body on soulless route
Teach you a lesson to tell others what you saw
A blast watching you die as you crawl
You want my fist, or the chainsaw
Damn, my arms is getting sore
That's from banging your head against the wall

No! Stop it Misha, I can't take it anymore
Stop that sick story, stop it all

Misha,but you're just a doll
Made with plain wood, 3 feet tall
Green eyes, sweet and small
Rosy cheeks, fun for all

Savior, do it
Kill her now, get through with it
Misha, no, she's my wife
I plan to spend with her the rest of my life
No savior, you're stupid, she's using you
After taking all your money, you're through
Divorce is gona take Valentine away from you
Do you want that ?
When a doll is the only one that's willing to chat
Lost the war, lost your daughter, win less combat

Savior,You will be back to your pill
Shivering detox, crying in chills
The pain of it, remember how that feels?

Walking in the park not knowing where to head
Only thinking how life is after life when his dead
Suicide note written, but never to be read
Smudged by blood, finger nails still bled
Recall the vows exchanged when we wed
Till death do us part, inspiration for me to chop off your head
You will regret cheating on me instead
Take back all the things you ever said
Learn to wake up beside me, not beside a hotel bed
Savior, if you want to kill her, just go ahead

You have me that will never go away
Just stop thinking, hear what your voices say
No one will even think it's you who did it
Everyone will be blaming on me
I'll take the blame for it
you get to see valentine grow up every bit

Misha, you stop it now
or I'm taking my hand out of you
Take life away from you
Put a hold while I find that missing screw
Sit you still, limit your view

Wait, why are your eyes still following my move
My hand was already been remove
Am I insane now
Am I paying the price
Misha, are you alive after hearing all my sacrifice
You're now talking to me without any device
What is going on now, should I take your advice

Savior, you have the right to remain silence
You are under arrest for murder

Wait what?
It was Misha! shes the one who told me where to cut
As I was dragged off to the car
Misha was smiling to me from afar
Savior, now you are a murderer star
Sick bastard sealed her eyes in the jar
Good job, now it's getting more and more bizarre
Tell valentine I love her, and you too Misha

Misha is playing dead so they wont suspect
She will be the one that I choose to protect
Everyone says I'm insane, but I think shes perfect
She's my doll, and she's alive, not just another object

As Misha fades off to the mist
Yes, the conversations we had will be missed
I still see the trail of blood coming from her wrist
No one will ever know Misha actually exist
The world will not know how the story had a twist
Savior, this is the ventriloquist

Beautiful. Just you.

2009-05-24T08:23:00.000-07:00

Sun light blinding my eyes
Lonely bird flying across the skies
Funny how feelings go from high to low
Top of the world punished down to pain and sorrow

I gave my best,
Is it wrong to have expectations from you
Disappointment causes the pain within my chest
I guess people never react the way we want them to
Take this situation
When you love someone, you give with no hesitation
Down in life, they won't notice you and walk past
The one you love, are the ones pouring salt in your downcast

Not a call before I call
Only need me when you need me
I don't ask you out, you don't even wana see me
Treat me like I'm some disposable meat
Everyone's selfish in this world, you ain't no different
How can I feel so discontent from someone so sweet
It's true, high expectations caused this discontent

Nobody knows how life turns out
Take what you have and what your about
Do what you need to pick yourself up
No one's gona be there forever throughout
I can life with you or without
Don't say that I'm not good enough for you
If you can't appreciate me, you don't deserve me without a doubt
You taught me a lesson, now I choose the better route

I ain't afraid of losing you
At the end of the day, I just want to be loved too
Life is like a workout
Stronger after each rejection
Immunity after each infection
Correction for each imperfection
Savior, I see you and I have a good connection
I feel a little affection
And I see a little erection
Why don't we fall into each others passion section
Savior, do you fancy me ? I fancy you,
Hope we can be together forever like a collection

Week later, she's forgotten about the words
Onto some other stuff, free as the birds
So this is what I have to say
In life, never let anyone tell you how to live your day
Not everyone will appreciate you for you, that's the way
So appreciate you for who you are, that sounds cliche
But life is about you, not about they
You are beautiful, and you are perfectly okay.

Introduction to home Part 4.

2009-05-22T20:14:00.000-07:00

Hey people, in case you never been to my place before, this is how my room looks like.

For thoseof you who ask, yes, I do have 5 speakers, and a base under the table. The portrait ontop of the HOUSE.md calendar is The Dark Knight with the Joker. The cute bird thing beside all my cologne is a mini vacumm cleaner that I got from japan. The red booklet is a magazine I bought from Britney Spear's concert.

Now onto my closet.
Well, as you can see, black suits take out most of the spacing, with a few purple and colourful collar shirts keeping in plastic for good conditioning. With 2 poker set boxes, and full of shoes. And yea, thats my tripod, always in use.

My crappy small bed, it's close to the window, so it might get abit chilly
But it's all good, I have a thick blanket, and nice to cuddle.

Onto my drawer..... Okay, I don't really know how to explain WHY do I have all these
things in my cupboard, but I just do. It takes a lot of work for me to go out.
So yea, with the DG and ralph lauren and some crap LV shades there.
Hairdryer, Spray, Straightener, contact lenses solution.
Face wash, oily face wipe, concealer, foundation, brush, eyeliner
wax, lipstick, shampoo etc etc.
So if you want to stay overnight, no worries, I got what you need to look
perfectly fine the next day !

So that is it, my canada's room.
Hope you enjoyed it !

Daddy is sorry.

2009-05-22T13:13:00.001-07:00

Savior.

Life is not always filled with glory
Sometimes its hell getting to heaven
This is the true story
Have you ever had someone to protect
My daughter's existence makes imperfect perfect
One day you notice that you're taking away her joy
She rather play with her wooden toy
This is how it all started
The story of how me and my daughter parted

Baby girl valentine
Daddy is gona be here all the time
She look me in the eye, daddy you're mine
Hugged her in my arms, promise everything gona be fine
Mommy Jaimie is out working cause daddy got fired
Coming back with wrinkled fingers all tired
It's fine valentine, daddy's here to read you a bedtime story
Mommy is resting, so be quiet and rock a by baby
Daddy got no money for Christmas gift
When desperate time comes, priorities shift
Now I'm writing all the lyrics
Hoping sooner I'll be in the main spotlight of hip hop music

Daddy still loves you valentine, his just busy
Go back to your room, go take care of mommy
Now valentine looking at me
Tears in her eyes, wondering whats happened to daddy
Why won't he spend time with me
I need him, but can't he see
Why is he writing on his pad all day
When mommy is always away
Now daddy gotta go away

Daddy got signed to a contract
When you come home from school, daddy's stuff are packed
My promise to my daughter is now an abstract
I'm sorry valentine, daddy gotta go work
I gave her my necklace, valentine, this will heal the hurt
When life comes hard, stand back up and dust off that dirt
Remember daddy always love you
Every time you hear the word 'Savior' in songs, its dedicated for you

Daddy, please don't leave me
Don't leave mommy
Valentine is pulling on my knee
Begging me not to go, but I left the first oportunity
Now I'm billboard number one
Records hitting, money coming in tones and tones
But the guilt is there, never gone
Now valentine you're never alone
Same with mommy, always in my song
Hope when you hear daddy on the radio
Watch daddy he headline the show

Daddy, I don't care if the money roll
I want daddy and mommy to play with me in the snow
But you ain't here daddy
Daddy, you had a choice
You chose to listen to the voice
I hope your happy, cause me and mommy ain't gona rejoice
You left us dad
You made mom sad
Deserted us, for your lyrics pad
Stop popping Vicodin
It won't heal the wounds you left me in
Everytime I call you, you're detoxing
Got me worried all night, I miss my daddy
Don't know whose this on the phone that's talking

Tears flowing out of my eyes
My daughter now hates me, like an angel falling down the sky
I risen to fame, but the love I've lost was the price
You never get to see your daughter grow up twice
Daddy heard you, valentine
Daddy is coming back home
Giving up that money and the power
Lets be a family again, vows the Savior

Daddy is coming home to make it right
and it starts tonight
So wait for me baby
Daddy is gonna read you another bedtime story
I'll be here from now on, would you forgive me, says daddy.

Introduction to home part III.

2009-05-21T15:52:00.000-07:00

Everything is okay.

2009-05-21T12:31:00.001-07:00

I press your key on the piano
4 seasons for you,
Summers gone, now let it snow
Every hour, minute, second
I'm here holding your hand
I ain't just the lover, I'm the best friend
I the lifelong supporter, not just a fan

If you let me be it
You will then see it
Hold you tight, leave it
Where it hurts
Where it bring tears
Where scars reminds
Where memory rewinds
Let's just leave it

I just want to hold you tight
Make sure all is good with you
Everything is just right
Fingers crossing each
Toes sinking in the beach
My eyes is yours to reach
I wana show you wheres the sun
Reach for the moon
Now I know your a mercury
With a hint of Venus
Mix with all the fantasy
I just want you to be with me
Don't want to get into zone of jealousy
Those guys around don't love you like me

Call me anytime, I'll be answering it
Stay by you when your sick
You're my crack, I'm admitting to be an addict
No one sees the side that I've been seeing
But we're far apart, seems like I'm leaving

That ain't true, I play no game
In class, I scribble your name
Know you cried, I feel your pain
Do anything to keep you happy, that's my aim
Days without talking, feelings still the same

Like a real friend is what I do
Stay loyal to you
With the hint of naughty for you
I feel it, lets hope you do too
I just want to hold you.

Introduction to home. Part II.

2009-05-21T11:32:00.000-07:00

Pics for Jolee.. cause someone is too lazy to get facebook...

The Whatever Heartbreak Poem.

2009-05-19T16:51:00.000-07:00

Green Salad, This is for you.
Savior.

Here I stand looking at the scar
Anniversary of you leaving ain't far
You dropped me off, you're now the lone star
I spend my mortal days sealing the hurt in my jar
Ain't worth shedding tears no more, just the way I are

The betrayal got me feeling ice cold
Engraved in my mind, won't melt away like snow
So drown me in amnesia, 10 degrees below
Indispensable no,
You're the one I plan to throw

I was hypnotized
Thinking you were who you said with your lies
Don't even plan to deny
Don't apologize,
Don't bother for a final goodbye

You see this scar on my hand
Watch as the blood territory expand
Bleeding that love, alone I stand
You were not as important as I thought you were, now I understand

Come telling me that we were meant to be together
saying your different from all the other
I should trust you, cause your intentions were better
You motherfucking liar

Everything you told me
Every time you hold me
Every second you unfold me
Every moment after you sold me
Every memory after I turned the cold me

Read into each of my line
Feel my pain in my rhyme
Black and white silence world, I'm Mr.mime
Playing on broken strings this time
Now I'm committing the love crime
Savior came, now that's who I'm.

Who is it.

2009-05-19T10:55:00.001-07:00

Whose the savior
Maximum pay on by the hour
Got money, now own that power
All the flavors sweet and sour
we partying in the ys tower
move with the flow, bloom with the flower
Sacrifice all I have to mix that flavor
Dealing with all that attitude behavior
Ain't backing down till i get it, swears the warrior
Form is temporary like the screen saver
We on fire,
another 3 minute line by the savior.

Party Up

2009-05-19T07:51:00.000-07:00

You need to party!
Drop the act, let yourself be
It's way pass sin hour of three
Time to show that inner beauty
Not caring the outer side, set yourself free
Don't care what you say, I'm gona be me

Savior's turn now
I'm back to my bullshit
'Together we stand' a classic, now this is the party hit
Don't be keeping that money in the bank
I say party up! for once, leave that mind blank
forget about class and rank
Girls do as I say, or receieve the player's spank
Yoo! soulja boy is here to crank
No one likes a party pooper lets be frank
Lets make that boom boom pow like a tank
Loosen up that waist, you have me to thank

We don't care no politics, this ain't high school
Party up! either be the party or be the tool
Let the roof burn down, we adding the fuel
Kingston go call 911, we jumping in the pool
Show some skin, don't be cruel
Let the girls see your precious jewel
Ignore insecurity, chill with me and your cool
Splash some party mix, don't take a shot, we make it dual

You need to party!
Drop the act, let yourself be
It's way pass sin hour of three
Time to show that inner beauty
Not caring the outer side, set yourself free
Don't care what you say, I'm gona be me

I'm all wet but still glow with flare
Now tell me that deep crush, thats a dare
Whisper me something that you never wanted to share
We all know how life is so unfair
So take this time out, party up, no more self aware
It's for all, so we ain't talking about no one's pair
Dance a little, blast tat music, your mind does its own repair
All hateful and venom must be checked out in declare
Only party people allowed, so others beware
Haters can't party like us, so they just stare
No dear, I ain't talking about you girl, I swear
But you could use some party in you, cause I care
We party here, party there, smiling popping everywhere
So I say party up! move those hips, swing that hair.

Together We Stand.

2009-05-18T06:48:00.001-07:00

This is for all of you who are going through a hard time in life.

Together we stand
Unite we hold our hand
Divided we fall
So I be breaking down the barriers wall

Now the wind blows
Tell you what I know
As you see I've been through more
People shutting me door to door
I had to hammer down my way through the wall
Just to answer my call
To do what I do in the world, I stand tall

Dust myself up whenever I fall
Broken into pieces, watch me crawl
You can laugh, won't bother me at all
Up to the big stage in an empty hall
Accomplishment did not start in me dreaming small
Life is my battle, my war, my personal brawl

Learning lessons from him, her to you
If your through changing in life, your life is through
Now I tightening my rhyme, chase to write something new
My time will come, so I'm patiently paying my due
Hit me again and again, scars born as I grew
Break me up, I come back again together with super glue

Thousand miles I still walk with same pair of shoes
It don't matter color the sky turn from black,pink to blue
Time to put the dream for others to view
I walk with you, same old steps one to two
On the road, believing in what I believe is true
Ain't no stopping me, not him, not her, not even you
I'll ride with my friends even if they had the swine flu
Ignoring the negative review
United we stand, engraved in my back tattoo
We chasing our dream in hot pursue
Let the bell ring, and bless us shine on our debut

Together we stand
Unite we hold our hand
Divided we fall
So I be breaking down the barriers wall

Savior ys
Who else, why you ask

Together we made it
Forever we waited
I'm taking in the moment bit by bit
We take it all together, never ever split
Boxers for life, never knocked out after a thousand hit
Hustlers for life, arrested but stay legit
I'm taking what Lucinda said, Hate all you want, I don't give a shit,
cause I'm commit
So bring it on, I ain't gona quit
Bring it on, I don't need your permit
Bring it on, I'll never submit

I walk with God
Protected by the Lord
I live what I dream, watch my million man squad
Let the demons get a taste of my sword
Stay onto the same chord
Savior, the conductor of life, the Leo roared.

Back to normal.

2009-05-17T17:35:00.000-07:00

Conductor of life.

Hectic life resumed today. Just as I came off the plane, I had to rush to the shooting location to start my photo shoot. To be honest, I was in a pretty bad mood from the flight I had. Yes, I might be infected with that influenza shit thing, cause the HK airline was stupid enough to let a girl with a high fever onto the plane, 2 hours into our 16 hour flight, the captain announced looking for a doctor onboard to help out. How scary is that?!

Honestly, I'm afraid now. Having to face the music once again. Having to face school and the sole independent life I have in Canada. With the constant reminder that the friendship bonds that I have in Malaysia might one day crumble.

This is how it is, I enjoy building something new, and yet I feel devastated when it comes crashing down. Strong bonds with my zhonghu group has lasted till today partly because of the amount of time and effort I put in spending time and teaching while learning with them in life. It is a sad note that one of my juniors has turned into such a mess, quite sad to see situations like these. It is time to admit to people, Okay, I was wrong to defend that person last time, My bad.

Anyway, I was just ticked off for the whole day, people in HK were way ruder than I ever expect. Especially the elder ones, setting such a bad example for the younger generation. 70 year old people yelling at others, and pushing each other's bags out of the way, so pathetic to watch.

I'm all for a little shot here and there, rappers beefing here and there, people showing how they truly feel all so often, but please understand, it is one thing to show dislike, and another thing to get personal and crossing the line. Take it from me, if someone crosses the line to me, I will do horrible things to them, imoral things will be done from the dark side within me.

So people, do not what you don't want done to you.

United we stand.

ys signing to pmo. lol

Blog from Hk.

2009-05-16T08:24:00.000-07:00

BIG STINGRAY !
Signed Jolee up for the shark diving course.

Man, this is boring, I'm trying real hard not to fall asleep and miss my flight. Hence, Thou shall blog. I could not stop laughing at my recent trip to the KLCC aquarium. It was hilarious watching Jolee worrying throughout the whole trip that the glass might break and the sharks will attack her.
Made a final stop to chs and pmo today, it felt... different for some weird reason. I felt the energy in pmo was quite low, I mean..I felt not many people were having fun n all. Oh well, just my thoughts.

Kanglin eating her 9th dish of chinese herb desert. Respect.

I noticed something really funny today, let me share it with you readers. My close friend pointed out to me, how some people change really quick in attitude. So much for being the most excited upon my arrival in Malaysia, and now can't even say a word to my face. OWNED !

As I sat upon my room today before leaving to the airport, I had this fear of me not being able to come home again. Like Malaysia or not, it will always be home. Like it or not, PMO will always be home for me too.

Probably I'm growing up, seeing things clearer than usual. Even my stamina is wearing down, turning into an old guy, went shopping with the kids, by 5pm, me and kanglin was looking for the nearest couch to sit down while the kids was still out shopping.

Well, trip to Malaysia was a good trip overall. It was better than good, it was perfect. Spending good quality time with good friends and build solid friendships and relationships. Gotta love life.

Seriously, I took like tones of pics from my childhood ! I will post them up on facebook soon lol.
Funny stuff. Pooi Ling, upload our photos soon okay !

Anyway, everyone, thanks for the sweet memories, and reminding me how many good friends I have here and why Malaysia will always be HOME.

I think I love my life.

2009-05-15T13:02:00.000-07:00

As I start packing my stuff at 4am, I feel I am in a lost for words.
It's like taking away a baby's favorite soft toy all of a sudden. It sucks to go back to Canada
after such a good trip home, I hate it cause reality is going to strike back in less than 24 hours.
In a foreign Canada, life is different. I don't get around getting away with most of the stuff I do here at home. Reality is going to hurt, but like it or not, life goes on.

It just kills me inside that I can't spend time with my friends, and only be able to have face to face conversations with them annually. Maybe that is why I don't mind spending tones of money with them, cause like it or not, no photos or conversations or gift can replace the sweet memory that can be relived anytime anywhere I want in my mind.

In Canada's reality, I have no true tight alliances, like it or not, nothing replaces the solid bond I have at home. Reality is, I fear the worse, people cheating or trusting the wrong people. In my mind, I just want to get through this shit and get on with my life.

People say life is short, and you might get hit by a bus tomorrow so you should live like everyday is your last day. I say, life is long, so appreciate the choices you make, cause you probably won't get hit by a bus, you will have to live with your choice.

I dread the trip back, having to do everything independently. But I still have to do it, lets hope I still do it like I can.

Anyway, I'm still talking on the phone at like 4am with this funny friend who can't stop talking about herself !! LOL. Totally going to miss these moments when I'm back in Canada.

Prayer from home.

2009-05-15T06:27:00.000-07:00

This ain't no normal post
This is a dedication
You see, where I'm from, respect was the issue
Not cool with me, I won't missyou
I put in random lines in my post just to diss you
But this ain't about haters
This is the loyal friends that I call ridersaa

Real shit in the writing, you can't deny
I write sins, not tragedies, my friends tell me no lie
Life is good at home, good to be alive
I do crazy stuff with you, never bothered asking why
the storm comes, lightning strikes, we know we ain't gona die
The leo is here, so lay back and enjoy
My rhymes the best, so are you, my dear gemini
I see no fear in life, we drink where we want
I write what we rant
so my dear p, you know I got your back
Shoulder fitting for you, you know its a fact

Don't hurt my girl kl no more
You loser ex, need to exit her life out the door
I know she reading my post, your name just cant be ignore
Don't hurt her, shes cool like icy
The green car rider, now you green with envy
I take care of her, now you filled with jealousy

My juniors play the loyal role
When they play the music, you be hearing them on d radio
John was the leader of man
Inspired many more to do what they do way back then
5 years later, we stand tall
United we stand, cause divided we fall
Pooi Ling ain't concern of you hating her at all

Don't hate cause they rise with talent
Don't push away my girls when they try to be your friend
I'm sure they forgive, wounds are meant to mend
You just can't stop me
It's a movement, my picks rise to heights that you can't see

They are talented, with the hint of beauty
Look at sarah, charming the society
Next big thing to hit my world, my dear jolee
I ride with the best, now time for the juniors to shine eternity
Let me move out of the spotlight, watch them grace the world beautifuly
I am proud to say they are true friends, don't hate me little missy
Life is good, so I ain't emo, just creative like crazy.

Amen.

Just friends.

2009-05-13T15:17:00.000-07:00

yea.
Adriana.
Savior.
Konvict.

I've had a little bit of crush, crush
All the adreneline start to rush, start to rush by
How could you reject me then, can't find a reason, oh man
Where is the love, I am just alone, alone

What's going on behind the door?
I hate this part baby so I can't be with you anymore
Let's stay calm, whens the last time we kissed?
I can't remember but its alright, alright

Just friends, your gonna be okay, da da doo-doo
just friends, single is the word babe, da da doo-doo
just friends, gonna be okay, f-f-friends
Friends, Friends, just, j-j-just friends

Wish I could tell you in other ways, oh die a-lone
How did I give you the wrong impression? go on days n days
Control your passion babe, this ain't romeo n juliet play
And we ain't happening tonight, oh die a-lone

When i come through the window checking out that stranger
Start believing your eyes, stop letting your love linger
And you ain't giving up, still copying my walk,
Can't leave me alone, stubborn as a rock.
In the meantime, My momma told me I was getting stalked

Shawty I can see that you got so much energy
The way I see you stalking me from time to time
And now theres no reason at all that you can't accept my honesty
If you really love me, let's keep our friendship fine

Just friends, your gonna be okay, you won't die alone
just friends, single is the word babe, I won't call you on d phone
Just friends, gonna be okay, f-f-friends
Friends, Friends, just, j-j-just friends

woo ! savior, lets go!

Half psychotic, sick, shes emo and gothic
Cut herself for me, leave me tears to lick
Half psychotic, sick, but me and her just ain't click
I am just not attracted, shes ain't my magnetic

Go! use your charm, move on, get the groove on
you got it, just forget about me and where i'm from
Don't start! stop stalk, no talk, just walk,
new hope comes with the break of dawn
we just friends
( I got it )
we just friends
( You got it )

Just friends, your gonna be okay, you won't die alone
Just friends, single is the word babe, I won't call you on d phone
Just friends, gonna be okay, f-f-friends
Friends, Friends, just, j-j-just friends

Why so hateful ?

2009-05-13T08:34:00.000-07:00

H.A.T.E.
Get it stronger when used loosely
What do you want from the world and me

Don't hate, make some love
Put it for what it's worth.
You choose to destroy,
While others desire to close an eye
Marking trails across your wrist
I look the other way, you dear, will not be missed

Why be so emo girl,
When we be in a beautiful world
Sometimes you hear but you don't listen
Control the emotions, chase the state of zen

Little lady,
Let's chill out and have some tea
You can't do it like I can, so don't reply to my poetry
Let's grab a smoke
Don't let that hatred choke
Wipe off that emo look,
Your like a living how to be depress guidebook

I read that you were disappointed
that and the hatred jointed
But I ain't judging
You were just writing
I ain't saying
You were just reading
Ain't listening
Now I'm showing you why I'm unique
You can't follow my flow with that slow beat
That moaning attitude is getting antique
What must I do
To get through to you?

But you think too much, socially lost
They look up to me, they know I'm still the boss
Go rehab that hating dose
Stop wanting the blood of revenge red rose
Yes dear, you can blame the emotions on my post.

Reintroduction at home, Part I.

2009-05-10T11:53:00.000-07:00

Beauty and the Beauty now. :)

Home feels good. This blog is for the special mention for everyone who I've hungout with so far, a special reminder for myself that how nice people are to me at home, and how many true friends there are surrounding me.

Here's to my family 1st, I noticed that my cousin actually reads my blog. So I have to be careful and not put too many swear words or 18 sx stuff into my blog now. My cousins are growing up, and I'm happy to see them doing good in life. As for that little 3 year old cousin, I swear, I see you throwing away the cookie monster gift that I got you, I will wait for you to grow up and then make you suffer.

Now for my pmo people.

For john, jaq and sarah, you are the 3 closes juniors I have that I've seen face to face lately. Just like to say, thanks, for growing up with me and always listening to me. It hurts me that I can't be with you guys too often, but I do intend to keep you guys in my life still.

Here's to pooiling, I specially wanted to sit beside you during the gathering...well, basically, I just wanted to get a quick read on you that's all. I don't know much about how you are doing in pmo these days, but from your actions, I think your not really feeling all too comfortable around the members I guess. That comes with being vice president. Just hang in there, people can be mean and judgemental when they never stepped into your position before. When I was music master, I learned that, not everyone can agree with you, but as long you do your job right, no one can disagree that your irresponsible and it was a mistake to choose you. So hang in there.

Now, onto my dear jolee. I really cherish knowing someone like you alot. I think you amuse me and keep me entertained all too often, while your personality and maturity somehow surprises me from time to time. If I had to choose someone to chill with, you will always be top of the list.
Know that I love you dearly, and I'll always be there for you.

Wei Leng, lol, I havent seen you yet !! But lets hope that changes soon, you're all too cute and too nice, people still take advantage of you. Totaly reminds me of my Jaimie in canada. But weirdly, I'll always like you for the way you are. Just message me anytime, you know I'm here to listen.

For the seniors in pmo, I doubt you will read my blog, but if you do, people like tan jie, jian liang, zhi xiang, zhihui, melissa, mei xian, tien huey, tian yan and many more, I want you to know, I have the upmost respect for you guys. After so many years, you guys still demonstrate loyalty to pmo and still try to get involved in it as much as possible, that takes respect and you guys are setting an all good example for the younger ones. Respect.

League of extraordinary conductors.

Now, speaking on the sour note of my trip while we're on the topic of respect and setting good example. I'm not in the place to tell you what to do in pmo as I am no longer involved, what I can say as a senior is that, respect must be given to our superior. No matter how much you dislike her/him, you must NOT, say something disrespectful and write out the person's FULL NAME, pointing directly all your anger and complaining in public.
This sets a bad example for the juniors who will be bound to take sides and it sets a bad image for you, you might have alot of complaining and dissatisfaction with that person, but for you to directly show your anger towards them in your blog, ( by stating their full name ), you have crossed the line.

Not only this shows how immature you are, it shows that you indeed need to learn your place in society, know how to learn to respect others regardless of your personal feelings, and you need to learn how to adapt in an unfamilar environment with the full control of your feelings.
You must control your feelings, not let it control you.
Listen to me, I'm not directing my anger towards you, but I am telling you, if you continue down this road, you will loose way more respect and way more friends.
Lets just hope you wont be too stubborn to listen and go on a assasination spree on your blog post again.

Now onto my dear -insert random name here cause she thinks its weird to read her name on my blog - . I like to say, thanks for sharing and letting me share stuff. It is interesting how we have so much to talk, even though there is alot of personality difference and obviously we grew up different ways. All I can say is, difference is overated. I like you just the way you are, and I'm not too good at sharing my personal feelings, so I'll tell you on msn then. But I can tell you this, I plan to keep you near by my side for ages to come. That is a promise.
You jump, I'm down there preparing to catch you.
You get lost, I'm in there trying to find you.
LOL. Live Long and Prosper.

Dear kanglin, you treat me so well, that words can't even describe the gratitude I have for you. Coming all the way to my house and fetch me around town to shop, WHO DOES THAT ?! NO ONE, except her. I'm blessed to have someone close like you by my side always. And yes, you will never be able to beat me in metabolism or stamina, no matter how hard you train, cause as off now, 3.30 am, my dad just woke up and his playing guitar, YOU TRY TO BEAT THAT.

I think that's part 1 of my introduction to home post. I must say, nothings much as changed since I was back, I think going through hard times in Canada has made me a better person in appreciating the people around me.

This is a thank you post for all who I've hung out with for the past few days. As for the ones who are too busy working or my bad planning as canceled our plans, I'm gona make it up, I promise.

Welcome to the dollhouse.

2009-05-01T07:25:00.000-07:00

Welcome to the Dollhouse.

Memories and fantasy, the two ingredients to make a soul what it is, to shape a personality into what it looks like today.
This show - Dollhouse. takes you through a storyline so creative and unique, that no one would be able to guess any spoilers or predict that next storyline that is about to unfold.

Ever hoped someday, you could have your friend who is long gone or no longer in contact with you, to come back to your side, relieve memories and spend some time together?
This show is for you.

A technology that allows anyone's exact personality imprinted into a doll. The doll are people who has volunteered to become an "active", meaning, they basically have NO personality at all.
But is it possible, to have NO personality, but still have a soul ?
This show is deeply creative, and a sure attention grabber.

Loneliness leads to nothing good,
Sometimes the people who least needs to reach out is the people that least capable of.

So it is nice of us to reach out to people that we don't seem to click with at times, yes, they might seem distant and anti-social, but you never know that small conversation you make might change how they feel for the day.

The ones that are lonely, are still in search of people to make them feel not so.

So people, try to reach out to people that you don't talk to often. You never know how much it helps.

Ugly Pretty Girl. Boom Boom Pow.

2009-05-01T00:16:00.000-07:00

Gota get that boom boom pow
I see this girl the perfect match
She lets me be, never too attach
She smart, sensitive,the perfect catch
But she the ugly girl in the batch
She the prettiest ugly girl in the batch

So what do I do now
She has that playful cheerleader, got you going whao
loves my rhyme like I'm lil bow wow
She the princess with that charming smile
ride anywhere with me, she like my style
What I do now
shes ugly outside, pretty inside now

I'm still 2000 nine
Fergie stole my line
William took my rhyme
My girl don't mind
She stay loyal, stay mine
She ugly, but personality shine
Let god's touch, turn water to wine
her from ugly to fine
Make over was on her mind
leave the looks behind
roll with the beauty this time

Got those lashes,
Make those eyes hot
Got those gloss,
Make those lips hot
Put those jewelry on, shine on the spot
Let that hair down, climax the makeover plot
Hide that lingerie under, show you what shes got
Shes gona turn more heads than I thought

Now she perfect now
going with the boom boom pow
You can't stop staring
Guys can't stop glaring
She fits into any wearing
We now make the perfect pairing
Now that's beauty,
in out side both flaring
boom boom pow
tats the sound of hearts breaking
boom boom pow
the story of ugly turn pretty in the making.

Ignorance is a bliss.

2009-04-30T06:28:00.000-07:00

Today as I was on my usual internet surfing, I noticed about Rick Ross's album sale. As I've stated before, Rick Ross was beefing with 50 cent, now he is declaring that he won 50 cent with his album sales..... when 50 cent didn't even put out an album yet.

Rick Ross's album vs 50 cent's album.

Debut Album
Port of Miami(2006) 187,000 copies 1st week
vs
Get rich or die Tryin(2003) 987,000 copies 1st week

2nd Album
Trilla (2008) 198,000 copies 1st week
vs
The massacre(2005) 1.2 MILLION 1st week

3rd Album
Deeper than Rap (2009) 162,000 copies 1st week
vs
Curtis(2008) 691,000 copies 1st week

and with that, Rick Ross declares victory....... over what ?
I guess people are just ignorant these days.

I'm sorry Rick Ross, you are nothing in this world.
And now, you declare war against EMINEM ?
Sorry bro, you can't even beat 50 cent, how can you even come close facing eminem ?!

In this world, all so many times people ignore the result, and celebrate a "moral victory".
Losers.
So next time you see someone trying to make themselves feel better after a defeat by saying it was a moral victory, they are lying to themselves, just like Rick Ross.
Wake up people, you need to face the reality, if you suck, you suck.

So heres Eminem's new released song 3.a.m.

Almost back to his best.

The Bigger Picture.

2009-04-29T03:53:00.000-07:00

All so many times, have we immaturely taken a stand for things that do not concern us. I'm sure everyone of us have done it before, hating or voicing out our concern for stuff that does not even concern us.

Example for the Chris brown and Rihanna incident, fans are bashing each other for... god knows what reason.
Even worse, all so many times we overestimate our abilities and influence on certain people or situations.

Sometimes, I get angry at myself for reasons that is beyond logical explanations, ever had that happen to you ?

Some people rant out on blogs, some people talk to their best friends, while others do not handle them in a very healthy way.
I tend to write, even though I know my English is not up to par ( blame rap music and Malaysian education system ). But I do think it is one of the healthier way of handling stress and boosting up ego. . . Instead of bashing others straight forward and moaning over and over again.

Yes, if all of your blog is just about moaning how life sucks and how emo you are, you are undisputed pathetic and you need to get a hobby quick. I guess I will never understand why people act the way they do, such as thoughts of suicide and hurting themselves. Maybe its their way of coping with stress, but people, it is unhealthy.

This is just my way of telling others and even myself, serving as a reminder that everyone is different, and if they don't do anything to affect us in a negative and impactful way, it is best to keep our mouth shut or sugarcoat our thoughts from time to time. A better phrasing will be learn how to control our emotions.

Theres a saying in the entertainment industry - Think it, Don't say it.
Hope everyone can appreciate the relevance of it.
Things are never as bad as we think it is.

Think of all the memories that in your mind was seen as a "life or death" moment, and look at it today, it doesn't really seem too much of a big deal eh. Instead it is the small lessons we learn here and there in everyday life that makes us grow and affects us the most.

So heres for the people who are going through a hard time, look at the bigger picture, Rome wasn't build in a day, take a chill pill, and think about whats your next move.
At the end of the day, it is the big picture that matters.

God, this is a boring post. Oh well, hope you guys like my new blog!

Blame it on The L Word.

2009-04-28T20:10:00.000-07:00

Girl I have a secret

I'll share, you have my trust

Shh, lets keep it between us

No body knows this is more than lust

3 piece to tell you

first,

second,

third

I used the L word

yes, 3 words, you heard what you heard

Same words coming out of you preferred

Say it in the day

Think it when your away

Say it when its is gray

Think it to make you stay

The L word, not only used for say

The L word, for me to display

You, me, and the L word

Encrypt it in my words

Encode it in the letter I send

I can't pretend

Need not defend

I must admit

One day, I'll be on my knees

Girl,would marry me

Let the word free

The L word

On your beauty

On your personality

From inside of me

Don't be shy

I look you in the eye

by

The L word.

Just a post.

2009-04-27T07:50:00.001-07:00

Happy birthday Lucinda.

Officer Ricky ( Go Ahead, Try Me ). [Dirty]

2009-04-26T16:10:00.000-07:00

[MoneyManMoe]

I fucking cant wait to pay the rent
Officer rickys baby mama aint even asking for a cent
Ross say he lean back at shooting a the police
That a lie i also heard ur jewels and cars are lease
This fat ho got jealous of 50 so he started the beef
Nigga stop saying u from the streets
Cuz all u do is cuff killers and thiefs
First of all witch gangsta is a co
Acting like u raps is hard u aint got no flow
I'll bust ur ass show u what u got to no
Even ciara laugh at ur ass
Cuz u raps dont pass

[Savior]

The money n the power, people calling me richy
My name is Mr. I get money,
Look it up, stated on wiki.
Giants bow down to me
Gold diggers want me as sugar daddy
rick ross's little daydream fantasy
Gets me all worked up,
Time for em to recognize me
oh shit, I got pulled over in my ferrari
I was making too much money warn the officer on duty
gave me a ticket cause I smelled his baby momma's pussy
you ain't no boss, you officer ricky
Queens baby, not fake ass miami.

[50 cent]

I put a razor thru ya face
I put a nine on my waist
I cock the shotty just in case
I pump nothin but bass
I put a pint of blood in the whip
A pint of blood on the ground
Bullets, bullets get to ricochetin
bouncing all around

That body all case cold I got her white wit it
If they ask me I think niggas from basely did it
I'm a southside nigga, we take on all comers
The first shot pop, we get to warrin all summer
These niggaz ain't hard I get on em on some different shit
Different strap, different clip, I blow the door off your whip
The cop fucked fox, sucked the cunt on the bimbo
Faggot must've thought he knock me out like Kimbo
with gondorea lips, his breath stronger than endo
Fat fuck playin wii fit nintendo
Have another tattoo, here's another tattoo
run into my goons soon, have new bullet wounds

[Iseerashonal]

I put da barrel to ya stomach n da nozle to ya head
Cock back trigger pull nigga u dead
I be shinin on u nigga like da flash from out a tv
You get laid out right six feet beneath me
Imma all around good 4 nutin bastard imma monsta
My pancreas secrete bile so i vomit on ya
My hood sense tinglin i sting u like da viper
Feel da sting in back i hit u wit da sniper
Yo bitch ho class so we tap it like nails
Her finger gettin sent to u in the mail

[50 cent]

Officer Rickyyyy, radio for backup
See ya ass anywhere you know I'm gon act up
You want play with me, when I don't want play?
Have my niggas whip the skin off your ass in broad day
Screaming boss, nigga you ain't a boss
Pussy nigga ya lost , listen officer Ross
I tell you straight suck a dick
You tryna come with subliminals
Cuz your ass the police
My niggaz is criminals
It's like every other word out your mouth bout a bird
Like you sling cocaine, this shit is absurd
You's a rapper, you's a motherfuckin rapper
It's a wrap, your career is fuckin wrapped up

[ Savior ]

I'm telling you as a friend
Let this little beef end
We do damages that can't be mend
Just give me a call, apologize,
and end it this round
Shut up before you get played like a big fat clown
Give up before I run your game out of town
Your game credit soon can't be found
After our verse, do the smart thing and bow the fuck down.

[50 cent]

My enemy's enemies are my friends
And my semis they like Siamese twins
See em up close, you wont see shit again
Like every fairytale, boy your life has to end
try me, get blown away way way
Go ‘head try me, get blown away way way
Try me get blown away way way
go head try me, get blown away way way

Return it.

2009-04-26T03:07:00.000-07:00

Let me fade away.

Reason for you leaving me,

Reason for breaking me,

I wish I could think of something to say.

Gave you all I’ve would.

You took it all in, accepted all I could give.

My heart can’t be glued back to one, I’m alone in disbelieve.

Tears dropping, silence surround.

Motionless, no thought, no feelings to be found.

No longer want to play the game of love.

This is it, Just wish to leave everything on earth,

Drift to above.

With the clouds,

With the sun,

With the moon,

The ones.

Can’t tell me lie,

Can’t make me cry.

In trade, I no longer know love

She took my heart, and never returned it

I see the pieces shattered in front of me

All of me disappearing bit by bit.

Love, please return it to me

Bit by bit.

Bit.

by

Bit.

Savior Unmasked.

2009-04-26T00:27:00.000-07:00

I say one for the money
Two for my show
Three lines then I’m ready to go
I walk like no one cares
You can’t do it, cause you worry bout those who stare

I be myself, my style
Hate all you want, you can’t match my green pile
Why can’t you greet me with a smile
Deep down you envy my happiness all these while
I write that special style, and I know it
Blue prints to show it
Green paper ready to throw it

So much gossip
Rumors sinked your friendship
So much hate
When will you learn to appreciate?
Life is good
Do what you should
Try what you could
Love is good
Break up, it could
Work out, it would
I’m just writing, you don’t have to be rude

I brag
I swag
Don’t use word fag
I don’t give a fuck about gay marriage
I don’t give a fuck about marital age
I don’t give a fuck about my girl’s heritage
Hustling for tat paper, 3 jobs with minimum wage
Writing therapy for my anger manage

24 seven, 1989 that’s me, started to walk the clock
Twenty years now, I still smoke at the rooftop
Shiny stars fade away often but never drop
Life’s a race, and I don’t plan to stop
Life’s a play, you either a hit to the top
Or disappointing in a major flop
I stay one lane, that’s my spot

Every mission to be what my dad was not
Every creation to make my lines hot
Every coin was risk to hit the jackpot
Every reason to challenge your judgmental thought
I forgive, but shit is never forgot
Life is just getting interesting, sudden twist back at the lot
Pad yourself the back, you deserve that prop
Been through so much, still chasing the top
The Savior is back, now let the beat drop.

My words the Womanizer.

2009-04-23T19:47:00.000-07:00

All the girls in the world
Got me spinning, my body to twirl
So many of them
So pretty of them
So sexy of them
I want them
Flash that body a certified ten

Oh, now that blonde she looking at me
Golden stripes breathing Barbie
In the club, she the life of the party
In the bed, she the freak of kinky
Three girls, four some she is always ready
It’s the season, I hunt that playboy bunny
Summer love, she makes the perfect love story
She gets what she wants plain and easy
She got me going crazy
I love that slutty blondy

Try a fun ride with a brunette
She got me chasing, playing hard to get
Set your fantasy free, got you wet
The one you see, but can never get
Really girl? I’ll take that bet
5 minutes later you ride on my jet
She riding on me, feel her sweat
We blame it on the alcohol after that

Up comes the Latina
She’s working the poll, you can’t keep your eyes off her
Spin and twirl, permission to kill me and wear my fur
I’m addicted to her
I’m seducing her
She’s feisty
She’s spicy
She’s burning me up inside you can’t see
Who the fuck needs j.t.
There’s Latinas, there’s sexy

Flash me that big booty
That black girl defines natural busty
Push up on me
She licks and whispers to me
Ciara brings it back with that m-a-g-i-c
Her cherry thick lips
See saw effect with those seductive hips
Grinding on me, her back and my front a perfect fit
She swallows it all, caps an amazing trip

My words the perfect womanizer
She’s the pro hypnotizer
Let me the lucky motherfucker
Satisfaction guaranteed comes with her
Be ready
Be ready
She’s pushing me to the maximum gear
You're now on the fast lane
One touch, now she came.

Cause I say shit that you can't think of.

2009-04-21T01:16:00.000-07:00

Girls who are skinny as hell but still cant stop complaining "I want to go on a diet!!" are secretly mocking the fat girls. They are demonstrating how they can lose weight just by saying the word "diet".

You know why Britney is the best ? She doesn't discriminate. No matter how much you pay, 50 bucks or 2000 bucks, she will still only sing one song live in her concert, no matter who the fuck are you.

My friend was preparing to be the next member of PCD. So she practiced dancing in high heels and singing "LA LA LA" all day. They said she can't sing in tune, but she looks too hot to be ignored, and hence they auditioned her for Girlicious.

Backstreet boys are 35 years old now, I guess boys will always be boys..

After Notorious B.I.G. got murdered, people concluded that if your stage name has a BIG in it, your bound to get murdered. Hence we have tones of LITTLE's walking around. Lil Jon, Lil Wayne, Lil mama.
Guess if I ever get famous, I'll name myself " Above Average Lee " / "2 and a half Cent"

David Beckham named his son Brooklyn cause there was the place they found out Victoria was pregnant.
I guess I will name my son "Scarborough Central Hospital"

David vs Goliath. Moral of the story - Don't name your children Goliath.

Lindsay Lohan has been on more hotel pillows than a chocolate mint.

Rap and Hip Hop and Russell Peters taught me that It is OKAY to be racist to your own race.
A real eye opener for asians.. ( Oh SNAP )
Black people can call each other the N word, while it is so wrong for me to use it.
Now who is being racist, listen to Obama, Spread the wealth.

House - Moral of the show - It is never Lupus.
- Your doctor is not good unless he has a cane

End of the world movies - Shit only happens if you are in japan or america.

SAW - Moral of the show - Never agree to play a game with a puppet.

Scary Movie, Date Movie, Disaster Movie, Epic Movie - Moral of the story - Watch youtube, its free.

Michael Jackson - Moral of his life - When you have too much money, you can do whatever you want. Be any race you want.

Timbaland - Moral of his life - "AY AY AY" / "Freak it Freak it Freak it" Makes you a singer. PCD copyrighted " LA LA LA "

50 cent - Moral of his life - When you get shot, girls come out stripping and money fly out of the sky. Which is untrue after experiment.

Eminem - Moral of his songs - If someone crosses you, write a rap dissing them back.

Angelina Jolie - Moral of her life - If you are sexy, you can steal any guy, give birth to twins and still remain your waist line, and adopt the world. If you are not, sorry, you end up like Rossie o Donell.

Residence in utsc - Moral of my experience -

Make a big deal when you see someone wearing a hood walking around.
Be shock when strangers go into your house, not because you did not lock the door.
Report to the police, and change facebook status.

Exam - If you are not prepared, defer.

Facebook Addiction - Go to Facebook Rehab aka Twitter / Myspace.

Life in university - People who are still up at 4m - they are studying / assignment
People who are asleep at 4m - Drunk.

Theres something about me.

2009-04-19T22:15:00.000-07:00

This is personal me.
This is how I be.

Woke up today, I felt I've grown
Big world, big life, i stood alone
Big dream, big fantasy, far away from home
Look back at people I've known
Can't communicate with them
Can't create the mood to be with them

What's happened to me
I see things that they don't see
People happily in love, engaging at twenty one
I tilt my head, what happens when honeymoon is done
Reality kicks in, long distance relationship ain't that much fun
If you see what I see, you sure will run
But I stand still
Puffing smoke remain my chill

Trying to figure out if it is naive
Or its the best way to live a happy life
Love at 1st sight, in your mind shes your wife
People around act when emotions run high
Quit school,not able to delay gratify
Small arguments, bring out the boys, bring em knives
People get shot, I don't even knew why
You hate, you get mad
Can't they just be happy with what I've had

They judge basing on primacy effect
Be different, turn into society reject
Fear and against change, why do politicians even calling a re-elect
No ones perfect
People should chase what they are able to get
Looks and reputation don't matter if your fate is sealed n set

You say I'm stupid, I'm sure you know best
You say I'm pessimistic, I'm sure you just guess
You think I'm hurt, But I am not
You think I'm loveless, But I got more than what you've got
I've been through the dark side, you can't see it, not your fault

Nothing left to prove
I go through life with nothing to lose
I am reborn, no one else's fool
You can't recognize me, but I know deep down you do
You don't agree with me, so you stay true
You accept me for me, I gave my respect to you
I live the way I want, so should you

I judge, you judge
Everyone judge
When will we call the line saying its too much
Girl showing off flesh, must be a whore
Guys have casual sex, you don't accept him for him no more
I told you my opinion, you showed me the door
Can't we all of us get along instead going to war

Lying
Betraying
Hiding
The end seems not ending
But I say live your life, ignore that audience staring
Critics opinions flaring
Step up and take control
Stir that ship your way, don't follow the flow
Fail once, brush it off your shoulder, let the past go
Life sometimes gets red hot, others ice cold
Drama and surprises never seem to grow old
I take my step, regrets and emotions in my control

Don't judge me
Don't need your approval of my personality
That is just how I am, the personal me.

Grandpa.

2009-04-19T02:17:00.001-07:00

Grandpa.

Before the next line arrive
This note is to celebrate my Grandpa's life
six children, seven grand children, life with loyal loving wife

Born in 19 thirty three
2009, he was called upon by the Big G
leaving the world with his lasting legacy
without him, there wont even be a ys lee

He was The warrior
He was way harder than all the street rapping gangsta
Survived through world war
he told me the time the Japs chased him from the door
feeding his brother with foods hidden under the floor

I did not know much about what he went through
He played a big role during my childhood
I'm dropping so many tears for him, I knew I would
I'm thanking him for everything, I know I should

Let me have one last conversation with him over breakfast
Let me have one more moment with him relive our past
I apologize for not understanding him
He might be gone, but his image is never dim

I look up above, releasing thousands of liquid piece
Grandpa, this note is for you.
Rest in peace.

rest in peace grandpa.

2009-04-17T00:59:00.001-07:00

Rest in peace Grandpa. I love you.
17 - 4 - 09.

Memorial.

2009-04-16T16:43:00.000-07:00

Today marks the sad day of my Grandpa going into a comma. So it's about time where he completes his full circle of life. It really brings a new perspective in life for me. I learn to appreciate what I've done in my life and mostly be thankful for everything that I have.

Think about it, if it weren't for my grandpa, I would not even be alive. Without him working hard all his life, I would not even be in the financial wealth that I am in now. So thank you grandpa for everything. you are my inspiration to carry on our financial legacy of the family. You have 6 successful children with 7 grand children. But me being the only one who spent alot of time with you before you got sick. So yea... this is my thank you to you, and if God is reading my blog........okay...I suppose God doesn't really read blogs.. but if you do hear my prayers... let him go in peace and not in suffer. That will be my only wish, take away my good exam results and trade it in for that. Who am I kidding, my results will be crap either way.

As you can see, I am trying real hard to not break down into a piece of tear sobbing mess. I guess my Grandpa should be proud of his life, having influenced 2 generations so much. I hope my grandma will be alright, having been with the man for more than 50 years.

My grandpa, a man who survived world war II, the invasion of Japan, a man who was well respected and well known in the community ( I ain't bragging ), he freaking owns like 5 big property that is rented by business...

so Grandpa, I never told you this, and I am sorry I can't tell you this face to face.
I love you, and thank you for giving me the life I have now.
You might not remember, but I always will.

Here I Am. Personal Me.

2009-04-15T01:56:00.000-07:00

ys lee
Here i stand, where I be
Beautiful toronto city
No more heart achy breaky
I don't shed tears for passed fantasy
Sitting cloud nine on heaven you can't see
Same old style, skill the killz by me
This is here I am
My personal Me.

My room with that plasma
My bed with that hot mama
My life, on your list of wana
2009, I do it bigga
2009, I return to malay-sia
Here I stand, better be impressed by me ya
How I am, expect for a night of thrilla
I'm so fly, they call me the Asian nigga

Forget those bullies
Had me one up during oldies
Babe, I've grown, I'm game, Now I'm wearing the hoodies
I worked hard to be top of the list
Respected from the west till the east
Just a late bloomer, haters please.

Here I am,
Here I stand,
Proud of where I came
from a kid to a man.

Covering talent with fame.

2009-04-12T12:40:00.000-07:00

Backstreet Boys vs Nysnc vs 98 Degrees

Ah yes, youth, sweet 17,18, 19. The age of transaction from a kid, to a teenager.
So many times have we've seen rising stars at the age of 19 coming out with their debut album, marketing around the young teen audience. Lets face it, it works, who wants to see a group of 4 old girls / men singing?

From groups such as Danity Kane, Girls Aloud ( My fav of all, if you don't know them, google cheryl cole. ) , Pussycat Dolls, Girlicious and many more, consist of girls scouted at a very young age.
Except for nicole, that girl turned 30 this year and shes dating a 23 year old... lucky bastard lewis hamilton.

Girls Aloud. Best British Girl Band Ever.

Anyway, if you really look into it, not all of them are really "talented", come on, admit it, you listen to them mostly cause One of them can sing, the melody is nice, and the other backups... are just fucking hawt. Example - Girlicious. ARE YOU KIDDING ME. No talent, watching their videos is like watching soft porn, but they do know how to market themselves, so respect still.

What started all this teen pop dated back to the early 90's. Backstreet Boys, which after more than 10 years, you are still calling yourselve backstreet BOYS ? dude.... N'sync, which only lead singer was Justin Timberlake.

Another big group was Spice Girls, and no, Victoria Beckham did not get famous cause of her singing... she got famous cause of the name she married into.
We now have PussyCat Dolls, which I think are alot better than Spice Girls to be honest, atleast they can dance, spice girls....haha, you call what you did in "Stop" dancing.

That begs the question, what happens to them after a short 5 year of fame ? when the group is.. no longer marketable to teen generation anymore ?
Spice girls broke up cause their last album flopped BAD, and out came Destiny's Childs, and it gave the world - Beyonce.

Yes, they broke up, and the lead singer takes the spot light and pursue the solo career, (being the only one that can actually sing, it's kind of an asset in the music industry).
For the backups who don't succeed ? They end up being a contestant / judge on a reality tv show, or they end up making random appearance on tv drama series, just so they can still relive whats left of their fame after wash career.

If only they had enough exposure to the audience as their talented singers, cause let's face it, everyone will cheer for someone who has been around in the spot light long enough.
Look at Victoria Beckham, why do people like her? You have no idea too do you !
cause she's been around the spot light all too long, and somehow, some respect must be given to her determined attitude to constantly stay in the spot light.

Posh Becks.
Married the right person to stay in the spot light.

Congrats to Taylor Swift for winning Country Album Of The Year in ACM. Good choice, we need more "country" teen singers like her to appeal to a wider audience. Even though I heard her sing live... and no, she cant sing live at all. But she is talented in writing music, so yes, she is cool in my books.
It is okay to like a singer when she can't sing cause she can write, that's my justification for my conscience. She kind of reminds me of a young Avril, I can't really put a finger on it, but I feel they are sorta the same.

Most singer's debut are like the biggest thing in the world, with a few hits, the world wide audience has a very very short attention span, hence publicist hit iron when its hot, take the full advantage of it. Most people know... only a few of them are here to stay.

Flo Rida, 2nd album, R.O.O.T.S... hit number 1, sure, But is he going to stay for long ? I don't think sampling old music beats will be a good idea, need to come out with something original soon flo !

Avril Lavigne. Best Damn Thing album. A total drop of standard compared to her previous albums. Girlfriend was no match for Complicated / Sk8er Boi / My Happy Ending.

I've heard tones of better things.

Many Many more, But I can say this, young stars such as Soulja Boi, Taylor Swift, Katy Parry are here to STAY, yes, even soulja boi, cause he knows what the audience want. Do whatever you can to stay in the spot light ! Look at Michael Jackson, Madonna, 50 cent, cause to be honest, controversy and scandal is good for publicity, as long you still bring your game to the studio.
We the audience are stupid enough to cheer for almost anything as long you entertain us.

Lets just hope Miley Cyrus doesn't stay.. 15 year olds posing half nude is not something I want to be looking at.

You don't know love.

2009-04-10T16:53:00.000-07:00

You think you've been in love ?
Girl that was puppy love
Have a crush on all the hotties with that groupie love
Guys drool when you flash them that curve
Have license to shoot, them be your fur
You got the car, then guy got serve
Breaking a kid's heart, does he deserve

Dancing long hair
Buttons popped open here n there
Guys staring at your beautiful pair
It's ladies night, she hotter than oven,rich guys cash disappear
Leave big boys begging in tear

Giving out energy
Closet full of Gucci
Guys hoping you get tipsy
But nothing with you is for free
That's why people call you the paid fantasy

You don't know love
The boys got baby face assassination
An epidemic sweeping across the nation
I see you every evening in television
The guys bow down to your doll domination
Mrs evil, I ain't gonna be just another patient
I'm the new and improved Asian sensation
T300 with Connor,so you better seek salvation

Your tricks don't work for I am fusion
My moves smoother than Johnson lotion
Shiny all over your high-knee but I spank it no hesitation
Leaving you drowning in confusion
You might be hot, but I roll with the temptation

I'm old school, abandon you gold diggers at the immigration
Lock you up for faking love criminalization
Send the boys to the game for self actualization
They need The Game, when I wrote Revelation
I'm done, my words painted the illustration
5 minutes gone, another masterpiece creation.

She calls my name.

2009-04-09T22:10:00.000-07:00

[Mystic Illusion]

The breeze brushing through my hair
I can hear you saying: come to me
The journey that takes me to a place where allowed me to leave everything behind
And return with a brand new me, have a brand new beginning in a brand new chapter
The secret to move on, is to leave the past behind
We're designed to meet challenges
What does not kill us, makes us stronger
Now embrace life as it is
Take troubles as our best friend
Understand them and deal with them
That... takes us to another level

[ys]

Yes yes, bring the lotion and lets go
Grab that bikini and surf to the flow
Float to where the wind choose to blow
Gone, bring on the next wave, I'm seated in first row
I want to walk on the beach, toes in the sand
Baseline by flock of seagull band
Now dance till the chapter waves an end

Come on, let the breeze swirl us a big typhoon
Watch pirates twirl gold like big tycoon
Jack go tick tick and Davy Jones go boom
Its a new chapter, sun and beach be our stacko
I see you n boat being uno
Boy, bring me a hot choco
Life is good, here comes the new flow
Keep your eyes on us, we starring in the perfect show.

Choice.

2009-04-09T01:38:00.000-07:00

How influenced are we by the media these days ?

If I were to ask you, why do you like kim kadarshian but not rossie o donell, would you be able to justify it except one is smoking hawt, the other is drop dead ugly ?

If I were to ask you, why do you oppose abortion or gay marriage, would you be able to make a logical explanation, except "Cause thats how God intended it to be".

If people were such loyal followers to God, whether it is Christianity or Buddhism or other religion, can you look me in the eye and tell me honestly, that you have followed everything that was said, and never broken a rule or committed any sins ?

No, you know why ? Cause you CHOOSE which law to obey, which law you just close an eye and pretend it was acceptable to ignore.

Hey, I have no objection to you choosing what you want to believe, you want to believe gay marriage is wrong, when you are straight as hell, meaning it would not affect you one bit, you go ahead and protest all you want.

My question is, can you back up your argument with logical reasoning, without pulling in "GOD" as part of the reason. Religion can't be proven, hence religion will be the least substantial evidence in any argument. As we know, religion has been often proven wrong in the course of time. Remember how people use to sacrifice virgins into volcano as sacrifices to Gods... we don't do that now do we..

If a person manage to justifies their beliefs with logic, even if the logic itself is proven to be wrong, but still demonstrates intellectual in a way of being able to make a choice with solid grounds of reasoning, a certain respect must still be credited.

Take example of the past US elections, SADLY, only 20% of voters who voted for the republicans actually DO believe that John Mccain is a better choice compared to Obama. Supporting his economic views and his past experience in war. That, is acceptable.

While the other people who voted for the republic party, voted because they think Obama, is a terrorist, or Obama supports socialism or Obama is hangingout with terrorist... or... because sarah palin was hot.

Ask yourselves, how many times have you added someone on facebook, just because they are HOT ?
How many times have you dumbass guys AGREED with a girl, because she is hot ?

People, it is normal to want to talk to a girl like this, but it is NOT OKAY to be a doormat and support / agree on everything she says..

Elizabeth from the view.
One of the dumber people on tv these days.

All so often we are influenced by the media, what the media reports. Such as FOX new's obvious bias to the republicans. Soccernet's obvious misquoting for front page title.

Do NOT let the media run your opinion, do some research or ask people who are specialized in the field you are seeking interest in, get to know more about the stuff that you have an opinion about. Example - Gay Marriage

Do you really think Gay Marriage is bad for the human race ? how come no one bans smoking then ? it kills more people than gay marriage I'm sure.

To be honest to God, I think most kids smoke these days to be cool. I swear, I've seen so many people who do not know how to smoke, but do try their best to act "cool". How come the government do not put a ban on smoking ? Instead government such as Malaysia spends more time putting a ban on PORN. When was the last time you heard someone died of Porn.

Oh god, I've been rambling on for too long, I think I even drift off point a couple of lines there.
At the end of the day, I just want you to know,

Make a choice cause of YOU, not cause people said so, not cause it is a trend.

If that boyfriend of yours is making you unhappy, but you are staying with him... for reasons that remains unknown to you, make a choice, and dump him.

If a girlfriend that is obviously using you and being more of a liability than an asset, make a choice, and dump her, who cares if shes super pretty and too good for you.

If you are unhappy, make a choice to be happy

Make a choice, cause you believe so, not cause others tells you that how life should be.

Public Announcement

2009-04-08T08:46:00.000-07:00

This is a public announcement regarding the situation of ys.
ys was ALWAYS in a stable condition, thus, wanting all his friends to know the following.

I know you guys are reading
just so you know, I won't be leaving
I'm still here living n breathing
this is my thank you note for believing.

I'll be your savior man
be your backup plan
I go on n on, you know I can
that bitch who hit you and ran
I be your superman
pick you up
clean you up
I'm better than lady luck

I'll be your conscience
be the shoulder for reliance
I tell you whats black whats white
always do what is right
show you the light
chance to get a kiss in return, i just might

I'll be your warrior
one hand with tissues to wipe off that tear
one hand with you when you face your fear
with a soft spot, tell me about your day my dear
I'm the skinny Santa, spread my cheer
oh wait, not my style, lets switch back that gear
so many lies outside, I'll be the one being sincere
telling you just how it appear
don't care if your straight or queer
the truth is what most people need to hear.

I'll be your brother
I'll be your soul sister
take care of you, like a mother
not judgmental on how you live, unlike other
not telling you what to do, let live your life I rather
help you in need, choose the kidney that you prefer
have a dream, I'll be your entrepreneur
have an idea, I'll be your loyal supporter.

I'll be your reason
making you laugh at stupid senseless all season
simple gesture calling you my hun
a blush cracks calling you my sugar bun
letting know a stranger that cares is better than none
we can talk, drink, dance, get those dilemma done

I'll be your hookup
got you game, you get laid
got you network, you get paid
got you secure, you don't go psycho instead
got you laughing, blushing till you go red
My hookup are for all occasion
that's what she said.

I'm ys, and I approve this note.

ys. 2012.

The Suicide Note.

2009-04-07T15:40:00.000-07:00

I need that golden compass
Make my choices just
Why are other people making such a fuss
Who to and who not to trust
When I don't even know who I am, who I was

Alone now
no lying now
no cheating now
no stealing now
the model right way, let's take a bow
fuck my life now
fuck your life now
you got what you deserve, I wonder how

First thing you say
"I hope she is okay"
pretending that fake ass way
wait till I come home at may
show how small you are in the world
the voices in my head still twirl n swirl

God, so many voices
talking to me, all these noises
is she talking about me
is he looking at me
seems like everyone is against me
I want the world to want me
but why don't it obey me
cause you don't know what I see
you can't feel how I be
I'm wrapped up inside, plotting to break free

Call me psycho
I'll run a riot and steal the show
strap me up
lock me up
and my voices continue to grow
everyone who looks at me is my foe
counselor send me to psycho ward 3 weeks in a row
stamp insane on my palm, I'm the ultimate sicko
better hide yourselves, cause I'm worst than wacko jacko

Ever had a nightmare
I ain't no nightmare
I'm reality,
give you goosebumps just standing here,
look at your hair
feel your underwear
I don't fear these voices, but do you dare

This ain't even a post
raising concern for all you most
my soul in search for another host
devil beside me, with her Prada calling for a toast
died of lyrical insanity overdose

They say don't joke about this
I say this ain't no joke
I now look for that long rope
cause you're reading the suicide note.

hahahahahahhahaa

So What.

2009-04-06T09:12:00.000-07:00

What an eventful and dramatic Sunday.
First of all, let me talk about P!nk's new hit "So What", perfect song if you are coming off a break up or in need of support of other people, or just a nice rock song. P!nk is back!

She's still one of the best

So Flo Rida came out with his highly anticipated 2nd album. R.O.O.T.S. Routes Out Of The Struggle. To be honest, there are not many hot songs on it compared to "Mail On Sunday".
Mail on Sunday had "Low", "Elevator", and "In the ayer". Even though, In the ayer and Low have similar beats, while Elevator was sampled from "Halloween"'s theme song. It was still good.

I listened R.O.O.T.S. To be honest, I did not like it was much as I wished I did. There are 2 good songs on it "right round" and "sugar" both of them sampled a beat that was known to the public, which I find abit uncreative and unoriginal. I'm not saying it's not good, I just wish they came up with something more original.

I mean, they basically just took the beat, and techno-ed it and put on some autotune. I don't mind beats sampled from other artist, when you can barely recognize the original beat, such as Kanye West's Good life is sampled from Michael Jackson's Pretty Young Thing. ( bet you guys didn't know that ).

Flo Rida. R.O.O.T.S.

Now back to the eventful Sunday. First off, Man utd vs Aston Villa. To be honest, I started losing hope after we went 2-1 down. Then Sir Alex Ferguson made this weird change that no one expected, throwing on this 17 year old kid to replace Nani. Sure enough, this talented son of a bitch scores the winner in injury time to give us a 3-2 win. His moves reminded me of a young Theiry Henry! Such a dramatic day for all of us who watched the match for sure.

41 - Kiko Macheda - Hero
Sir Alex Ferguson - Mastermind

Stupid move benitez, to come after Sir Alex Ferguson. I guess the lesson here is, to have patience in life, and gamble to go for the win.

Good vs Evil
Light vs Darkness
The showstopper vs The Phenom
Mr. Wrestlemania vs Mr 16 - 0
The Main Event vs The Streak

HBK vs Undertaker

Now onto the granddaddy of them all - WRESTLEMANIA 25.
Okay, it actually sucked. Totaly not worth paying, if you were to buy or watch wrestlemania, don't bother watching it EXCEPT for the HBK VS UNDERTAKER match.

THE MATCH WAS CRAZYYYY

both superstars tore the house down!! Wrestled for 30 minutes, hitting 8 finishers in total. Even though everyone knew Undertaker was going to go 17 - 0 , the drawing point was the match itself. It was DEFINITELY, the best match EVER. Yes.. EVER.
Other than that.... the whole wrestlemania was a disappointment..
Oh well, can't ask for a perfect Sunday right.

Well, I read a few people's blog these days.. What is up with all the depressing love / heartbroken shit man. People are blogging about how they can't trust people and stuff.. Feeling down ? NO WORRIES, Listen to P!nk's - So what. Taylor Swift - Love Story.
All available on the playlist on the right.

Okay my readers, I'm off to do my stuff, enjoying this beautiful day.
yes, Man utd are back, so my luck is coming back strong too lol.

The Way I Are. A special thank you.

2009-04-02T10:13:00.000-07:00

This was such an interesting day, all so often people have been telling me about my blog is filled with hatred and venom, but you guys never appreciate the nice poems that I write! Come on, "Beautiful" was a nice one.

So this is what happened, people were raising concern about my recent post, so they kind of consulted me about my well being. I know, it's really funny when you think about it, but they meant well..... I guess ? At least I know people read my blog. See, being positive. HAHA

This is funny as hell even as I'm writing, cause I'm here thinking, if my poems were so disturbing, how come no one ever questioned Eminem ?! OH COME ON, just cause his famous.. you psychiatrist let him go ?! and I'm telling you, if I were black, it would not be an issue, it would just be good rapping. Cause I'm asian!. That must be it !

I must say, thanks to you people for reading my blog. Good to know that my writings are so strongly disturbed that it raises worries. You're right, totaly attention whore of me. The worse thing is, I actually thought I won an award or they were going to hire me when I had that meeting.... now THAT's me being positive.

Just like to say this, no matter who you are, whether you're constantly emo, constantly happy (must be something wrong with you), constantly being a smartass, or constantly being boring.
You are who you are, and you can't change that. If other people can't accept you for who you are, fuck em.

That's just the way I are.

The Way I Are - Timbaland ft. Keri Hilson , D.O.E.

Get Rich or Die Tryin.

2009-03-30T12:54:00.000-07:00

Lets make it
I wana hear cling cling when I shake it
Full belly piggy can't take it
Double swiz account, so don't hate it

I planned my full assault, I ain't lyin
I'm destined to get rich, or die tryin
Sleep on d streets, or high flyin.

I wana have money like fifty
My clothing line style like diddy
The money n the power, people calling me richy
My name defined with money,
Look it up, stated on wiki.
Giants bow down to me
Gold diggers want me as sugar daddy
These little daydream fantasy
Gets me all worked up,
Time for em to recognize me

I can kill for it
I can steal for it
As long there's money, there's my will for it
In high school, you see me as the outcast
A late bloomer, now I bloom at last
Say good bye, cause you're gona be doomed real fast
Try to bully me now, I fight back, it ain't like the past
I always remember, who did me wrong and what was

the point of hating me then,
When I'm here hustling even for that 50 cent
I'm so money minded, even my macbook is up for rent
Damn, show me the money,
I'll be out in d streets cleaning your bent
5 years on now, I'll be the man
You'll be cleaning my Ferrari
While I shop for a Bugatti
On my girl's birthday, she got a Lamborghini
It's all my money, I don't need no cash from daddy

I planned my full assault, I ain't lyin
I'm destined to get rich, or die tryin
Sleep on d streets, or high flyin.

Imma study all day
Work 3 jobs on the same way
Ain't no time for pointless shit,
I don't care what you gotta say

Imma hustle for everything
You ain't no better than me,
Cause you've got nothing
I got my bankroll for backup when we start fronting

I'll lie, cheat and steal
Even commit a crime to seal the deal
Imma get rich by myself, even if I have to kill
Destroy your future, better get out your will
You celebrate for thousand,
I be striking for mill.

I planned my full assault, I ain't lyin
I'm destined to get rich, or die tryin
Sleep on d streets, or high flyin.

For the right price, I play the Russian roulette
For the right pot, I go all in with my deuce set
Kick the keeper to get it behind the net

Turn you gangsta to wanksta
Be prepared to be working as a part time actor
World of cut-throat, well I'm the mayor
Study all you want, getting money is my major
Life just began
and I'm going full insane

I planned my full assault, I ain't lyin
I'm destined to get rich, or die tryin.

Tic Toc Love. Again

2009-03-27T13:41:00.000-07:00

tic toc
sings the clock
tic toc
tic toc

until your hand holds mine
and the clock yawns wide
tic... toc...
tic...

and it stops
it stops and you and i walk
and you and i leave the world behind
you and i and no signs of time

sunflowers, butterflies
one taurus and one gemini
tic toc
tic...

love

alejandro

tic

tic...
leaf to fall
calendars to peel
destiny comes to call

palm keeping yours warm
eyes finding way out off yours....

pick

pick..
footing our trail of prints
gently leaves a little hint

onto our secret lair
you n I,
will always be a pair

love you more each day
can't wait for tomorrow
beside me you lay

comes the night
our shadows unite
another love to write

click.

can't continue
our love is too beautiful
to be written in words
I know it,

you know it too.

tic toc.
tic toc.

ys

Beautiful. That's How I Feel

2009-03-25T08:04:00.001-07:00

Woooooo
I'm doing it again
on the writing spree again

When I stepped into the club
The 1st I saw was you
Leaning towards the pub
Great wall of guys dying to get a piece of you
I zoned out, with my dreams of you
A world that has nothing else, but us two

When it rains, your the cloud that follows me
I'll be catching every drop
Your the definition of what beautiful should be
When it shines, I know it must be you
Warmth my inside,
I bet you know how you make me feel too

No dear,
Don't drop no tears
No dear,
No more fear
cause I'm here
I won't let you fall anywhere else
But on me
I'll let you be free
Hope you turn back and come home to me
Hate it when you leave, I apologize
cause I don't believe in telling you lies

Just by staring
Turned into glaring
Leaked out a smile
Understatement to say you look fine
One second of reality,
Whole night fantasy on cloud nine
A picture is worth a thousand words
A picture of you, lifts me up to heaven with the birds

Tell me your name, you drift me away
A simple hello, brightens my day
Your the queen, standing among princess
I feel so in love, I must confess
Standing with those high heels
Running out of words to describe how i feel

Your just beautiful.
And I need you to know,
that's how i feel, for you.

Before. I. Self. Destruct

2009-03-24T18:30:00.000-07:00

Brand New Day - Ryan Star

Hey people, things are not going good man. My health is serious taking a big hit, So are my results. (I totaly blame it on Man Utd's recent form!). I don't know whether I can be fully fit for the April final exams. I ain't doing good man, I'm facing a big crisis in catching up in my sudden string of bad results. Waking up in the night shouting cause of my headache, and feeling dizzy cause I was facing laptop for too long of a period. To be honest, I'm starting to lose my cool.
I ain't the same as I used to, can't dazzle and talk my way out of situations. I must say, the whole being in comp science life, is not transacting as smoothly as I expect it to be.

Today's song, Brand New Day - Ryan Star. For my newest addiction - Lie To Me.

Another day. Another drama.

2009-03-21T00:35:00.001-07:00

In a rare scenario, I am finally going to share what is actually going on with my life in details in this post. Once again, I had to talk to the cops ( Thank god this time is a short conversation ), and yes.. this time, I am INNOCENT !

Anyway, so where do I start. Ever seen a couple that hurts each other constantly (Mentally and Physically), but they break up..get back together..and get back together again, just refusing to STAY break up. Like it or not, I am always the one that clean s up the mess. I ain't bragging, I ain't trying to get an award, but I want people like that to think for a second, for all the things I've done for you - taking you to the hospital, bailing you out of jail, saving your ass when you can't get out of a situation, or even lending you a listening ear when the people around you just don't understand.

Have you ever thought of taking care of yourself for once?

Okay, back to my story. My friend, and her partner, refuses to stay break up. I'm sick of having people knocking on my door crying, and repeating the same old story. God, I just hate it when people say they want to suicide, and demonstrate immaturity.

All you readers, take this advice, never get involved in people's relationship. I think it's pure pathetic when your friends take part in YOUR altercation. I'm tired of this couple getting back together, especially when both of them always complain to us - the friends and come crying to us.
If you hate each other that much, stay away from each other. Period.

I'm sick of saving people like you. People, you need to grow up, and learn what is good for you.
Relationships, don't have them if you can't handle it. An average person lie 3 times in every 10 minutes conversation, so stop lying to me. Cause I'm very good at reading people, and next time, I swear to God, I will let you cry and have a mental breakdown in front of me and do nothing.
This post is not just for you, it's for everyone out there who comes up to me asking me to save their ass.

Never go back to someone in a relationship just because you can't move on. Learn how to be independent in life. It's better to be alone, than to be pathetic.

I help you, not because I like you or I want to, It's because it's the right thing to do.

This is just retarded
Shit like this shouldn't even had started
You two drama queens should had just parted
Stay away, start living broken hearted
You lie, told me never again
Behind me, you seek each other to do more pain
No pills can cure you, you drive each other insane
Who said this was love, you tied yourself in this chain
Afraid to be alone, that's what you have to gain

You think it's worth it ?
Fine, do it
Keep me out of it
I don't have time to deal with your shit
Don't come telling me that you're now fine and strong
10 minutes later I hear ding dong
Guess who, the cops are here saying somethings wrong

You're crying
Thinking of dying
Everyday, same story
Same ending, still with me, the burden to carry
This ain't even funny

One up last episode's drama, same plot of hurting and mending
Every episode has the same ending
You're losing me as an audience
I just wish you would remain in silence
Don't call me savior no more
I ain't no cleaner, thats not what I'm for.

Part II. Back to my BullShit.

2009-03-19T00:20:00.000-07:00

Too stupid
Why do I even bother with your shit
Auctioning off your worth for minimum bid

I don't care for your life
When you needed me so many times to survive
Don't come calling when you need somebody
I was there for you, but what you do for me
Doing stuff that no one would do, you don't see
if I'm that disposable, just ignore me
Don't come apologizing to me after my poetry
Laugh it off, you might think its funny
But secretly, I write my hatred for you in my diary

Talk loud, nowonder you got dumped
And shes there complaining you gave her bruises n bump
we have another chris brown
Another loud-mouth loser in town
Now for you ungrateful bitch ass at home
Only calling me the boss when your helpless and alone
I gave you a chance to make it up, reset the tone
And yet again, you little bitch send anger down my bone
It's over for you fucking people, I don't share none of my throne
I'm hitting back at you now, when I'm mercy prone

You want to critisize me, when i don't want to know
And yet you have the face to come ask me to watch your show
Fuck you I say, middle fingers for you to blow
And I'm still spitting my verse 10 days in a row
You fuckers think its funny when I don't wana play
This is it, I'm silencing you, see what else you can say.

Oh wait!!!
I still have more
Wayne make it rain, I make it pour
People take days to write it, I put mine out raw
Liars like you to exist should be against the law

Lose a pound fat bitch, slice you up we can cure world hunger
What kills you, only makes the starving kids stronger
Ha ha, got you there right, you suffered another lost
Killed you off before Kanye found his black kate moss
Better get more quarters, cause you ain't passing my stage
That's 25 cents, bet you didn't know that, your iq is the same as your age

I laugh at your stupidity, so funny that words can't convey
You failed in life, in game, hell, you even failed a survey
Now for that loud mouth bitch back in Malaysia
I'm back on my bullshit, like 50 back on Tia
Even a blind person think your ugly for fuck sakes
Dora the explorer got lost in those hairy legs
Wear that push up padded bra, still flatter than a 5 year old
Don't walk under the bridge, you might scare away the troll

For that mutherfucker who said my parents did a bad job raising
Look at you now, deported from Canada, debts come chasing
Next verse get you laughing so hard, get a box of tissue
Rumor on the street is that you had small dick issue!
I don't fake to be no gangsta, don't talk no hood
I'm authentic to myself, you lie too much for your own good
You were so irrelevant that I don't even remember your name
But I heard you did research on me, guess I'm destined for fame

Size me up but can't touch me
Look me straight but can't talk to me
HHHHHEEYYYY, That bitch who stole my credit card
I gave you too much credit, overated you as a retard
Brace yourself in pushing carts
I'm not implying you'll be working at wallmart
I'm saying you'll be homeless, cause your sesame street smart
Live in your fantasy world, it won't last any longer
Your beauty fades, but you're stupid forever

Ahhhhhhhh
I'm on lyrical steroids
Game like Metroid
Can't hide, cant avoid
Read the tabloid
It's a shame you can't fight back
I'm on top shelf, you bottom of stack
In a world of words, your skills just plain lack.