R.I.P. blog.

I declare my blog dead.

This blog, has just been a graveyard of my rants and emo-posting.
But now, since yours truly is too happy and back to his
very best.

I declare this blog R.I.P.

Till next time, I hope to never post any emo
blog post on this blog again.

I've been cured.

Thank you guys for reading.

Blogging everyday is still only for losers.


Savior Production.

Uh Oh, there I go.

My shades got me blind
Am I the one
You were lookin to find
Tryin to find a meaning
Within my line
Get inside my mind
Stab me from behind
Now you did it
Now you gotta give it
back
throw em in the sack
return it
before you face the savior attack
silicon exploding on your rack
clean you out with that african american jack
so blind
I see no white or black
World is falling apart with this track
So I'm constantly running on every lap
Asian kid gotta practice how to rap

In the shower
On top of the empire tower
On the bottom of world trade center
In the middle of the offender
In the process during a render
Do life like B.I.G.
When smaller is always bigger with lil weezy
You should start lovin me like your enemy
cause your friends change
While I stay the same dirty and greasy
These beat gets me deezy
Crack that bottle on girl that gets needy
Let me do my thing, missy

Stop with that plan to steal my heart
Love will soon tear us apart
So I gave mine to her at the start
Louder with davy jone's heart beat
I eat angel's meat
The devils curse don't mean shit
Used to being hot
So I'm alright with that hells gate heat
I don't serve, I tore you a new rip
Still highlighting me giving them that knockout hit
What goes around / comes around
Back on to the repeat.

Note to self.

Note to self. August 14th.
Back to my very best.
Back to being myself.

Thanks.

14.8.

I doubt many people read my uneventful blog.
But this is for the one special reader.
The 3 post below are for you, and you know it too.
God, this sounds so cheesy and corny.
so...I'm gona stop saying stupid naive stuff like that..


Anyway. thanks for being you.
14.8.

Letter.

Please give me a call
As I wonder off
Look into my crystal ball
Watch my rise and fall
I’ll be grateful
Maybe there’s more past these walls
My eyes staring through the long halls
Life is not that bad after all
Not at all.

Hey dear
Just dropping a quick message
I heard life has been hard lately for you
So I thought I spread you some cheer
I’ll go see you next year
Life seems incomplete when you’re not here
Maybe I’m just naïve
Never know what to believe
Words are made to deceive
Remember my ex?
She said she never leave
But that bitch did, and called the cops on me too
I hope she gets the karma she deserves to receive.

Are you different?
I hope so
We talk on the phone for so long
Share laughs even with our heavy accent
It’s been a while now
And yet we haven’t had our first argument
No worries there
I doubt it will happen
If it does
Who cares?
We’re drowning in the current.

You ever get sad
For no reason at all?
I do
But lately I’m glad
So I write nice poems like these
Why do people blame their fate when their mad ?
I never know
Let’s hope one day you’ll be my best I ever had
Wait, that’s wrong, that’s past tense
I still want this to go on
Man, I’m not even making any sense
And you still laugh at my joke
Must be crazy as I am, no offense
I bet god is laughing too
At our untold story’s expense

I’m trying hard not to sound cheesy
Or too corny
Used to writing sad songs
Or the occasion love fantasy
I apologize if my words are coming on too strong
Was never good in expressing myself all along
We’ll see when the time comes
Whether together we belong
I hope so
Sick of being wrong
If only I’ll be your superman
And you’ll be my weakness kryptonite
My muse for all my write
I looked up horoscopes the other day
To my delight
It said we’ll be alright
Your passion fits into my ego just right
Now the last piece of the puzzle
Will be me getting on the next flight
Who knows, someday,
I just might.

Please give me a call
As I wonder off
Look into my crystal ball
Watch my rise and fall
I’ll be grateful
Maybe there’s more past these walls
My eyes staring through the long halls
Life is not that bad after all
Not at all.

Hello. Hello. Again.

Hello Hello again?

This is getting me obsessed
Swallow down the rhymes to digest
Shit it out it to a release of stress
Many of you never had guessed
I'm writing this during my test
Every page is just another mess
Could I defer the exam with a booty call request
How is this write different from the rest
I haven't looked down her dress
So it's all imagination for the breast
So baby now get undressed
Lemme write to the beat of your chest
You readers got all impressed
Why am I so cursed and blessed

- would you focus on your test sir?
If only I could kill you with my word
Burn down the building with all these nerd
Voodoo you, so gimme more bubbles to stir
Look into the pot all I see is her
Our body parts are in blurred
Must be some Japanese porn, weird
Your friends in shock when they heard
You giving me the L word
Haters can count my fingers
Count to the third
I'm more than just a flirt


If only we solve a brawl without a gun
Instead a war of words should be done
Getting mad at a Facebook comment?
You need to chill out hun
'I'm yours' when jason mraz has none
Come on, I'm just having some fun
I make fun of whoever I want
Here comes the gangsta fans
I better get ready to run
Should I finish what has already begun
Who writes like this?
your looking at the only one
Onto the poetry contest I didn't won

They write about love
but never been
My inspiration comes from the broken violin
Wait, deja vu rhyme for a min
Scary thoughts creeps upon your skin
Writing this put a smile on my grin
I should get awarded the second I'm in
Simply cause my words are real from within

word

Hello. Hello. Linda.

Hello, Hello
I'll be the vamp sucking on the necks
Hormones running high as i relapse
We can switch it up and do it on the deck
Anytime just drop me a text
I'll bring the condoms and get ready for sex
Better head than all my ex
Moaning too much fog up the specs
Want more? lemme recharge tat vibrating objects
Just relax
..
Relax senorita
Take off that passionata
We can do stuff thats plain bizarre
Sneak one right in the cinema
I'll be careful not to leave a scar
Can't help myself, that's just the way i are
Babe, cant handle it ? i know CPR
After this, we go shop for some la Pearla
Get some sippy in the nearby bar
Go at it again, we fuck like the porn star

She said
I <3 u a lot
Must be my words getting her hot
Blood pressure breaking the clot
Tied up together in a knot
Don't slip on that wet little spot
Holy, its wetter than i thought
My love is my sex, for u I have a lot
I have true feelings here, opps, I'm getting caught
What happens now to this plot ?



graphic.

Selfish.

When I open the paper, all i see is hate
How about some love, that would be great
So let me write about it, can you just wait
This is for the world that god did create
Heaven or hell, we'll see on the date
They say if your queer you go to hell
So you better be straight
But I don't believe in those shit
I make my own fate
I be with to whoever I choose to mate
My words got the politicians to debate
But I'm sure all the readers can relate
The pressure that comes with life
All the responsibility on the plate
They say savior, you should be sedate
Writing these shit poems from morning till late
How can they hate the magic my words just made?!

Is it scary from my view
Living with a loosen screw
You don't have a clue
Think my rhymes are through
Chill, I still got a few
Everyone judges who
And yet they wana try my shoe
That I always knew
Inside a lonely heart
Is it scary to you
Others get what you pursue
Your jealousy starts to brew
Do you still want everyone's dreams to come true
Maybe at the end
The evil one is you.

Well,I want to do it my way
Only my pro's are in weigh
I'm a selfish lover everyday
Devil I might portray
Angel in disguise they pray
Again, I ask to myself, who are they
Selfish life, you don't get a say.

Burning Love.

It's just freestyle
All these while
But before we walk a mile
Let me dial
Your number preferred right here right now
Don't get hostile
It's just a trial
I can handle you, I'm versatile
Don't need a while
Gimme a smile and so will I'll
Dine you out
Take you out
Wine you out
Then make you out

Every single time
I get this out and start to rhyme
Talk about love and you come combine
Its write as I go all in my mind
Shakespeare I got him to resign
Baby I give you my love, don't decline
Look up in the sky with the stars go aline
Wish for a dream come true, be a star to shine
Wont walk out of love before I run out of time

Wont talk out of rhyme before next stanza
Make plans with me cause I be your agenda
I love you girl, before, now and afta
Hold me tight, I'm rare like panda
Don't make me repeat twice, don't beg a pardon
Memories are meant to be forgotten but the fire in us still burn.

Deja Vu?

Sometimes, shit just happens the same way it did during high school.
Is it cause I've forgotten the mentality, or the obvious, people never change ?
I think I've gotten used to a certain way, meeting new people / different people who are
not used to me being me, I need to tone it down a notch.

Oh wellz, Life is just a journey of searching who I am.
Sure, insecurity rises when you do not feel you are accepted by someone for being who you
are, so... I don't know... lol
Been running out of ideas / smart-ass comment lately, either the school is stressing me out, or
I might actually have to consider going to one of em seminars to boost up my social skills.

Let's just hope I have a bigger patience than I did when I started off, and wait this shit out.

it's 2am, so me should quit typing on my blog talking to myself and go study !

Look Back at Me.

People today hate too much
So Imma write to give you a nudge
Not the full picture,
Just a simple touch
Artist painting here
How you enrich my life when its poor
They say I sound immature
Jumping onto you without knowing how you were

So I'll call you
Replaying the images when I last saw you
Words coming out freely but all true
She seem to show no interest
Is it work stress
School stress
I know I'm just not the best
If you knew we can't connect, I don't protest
You don't, yet you came and gave a reject
My heart refuse to accept
Lemme prove that you're incorrect
This crush is still stuck in my chest
Don't care bout my past its all wreck

I'm telling you where I'm at
I hope someday you'll look back.

Love Music.

Savior.

I'll be looking for you if your lost
Run away with you behind Kate moss
I'm thinking about you without a pause
Give up everything just so your my because
Got worshiping your beauty so gimme your cross
I say what I mean, I need no applause

Real feelings don't crumble with time
How you feel is how I made my rhyme
Don't mix up me with others in the past
My emotions aren't moving away fast
Never planned for this to begin
Infected with love, its spreading within
Let me live on with your disease
Why find a vaccine when you can be Mr lee's
Its a beautiful story with a hint of magic
This comes from the lyrical maverick
Making love for you, this is the love music.

Marry me.

Hardeep.

My hubby 2 B
When U asked me 2 MARRY U
I said 'Yes I DO'
The things that U do, it was all 4 show
Babe don't U know, that U had me at 'Hello'
Goodbye 2 all my other admirers
They told me of all their desires
Oh the broken hearts
Will they ever 4get the sparks?

Think of all the exciting fun, just U & ME
Oh Holy Mary Mercy ME
This is what love's supposed 2 B
How lucky U R 2 HAVE a fine lady LIKE me
Sent from the heavens, a dream 4 ALL 2 SEE
Love is the essence, love is the bridge of all distance.
*Kiss kiss* let us forever B in this Bliss!



Aether.

This love poem trading just got intense
Imma submit to the suspense
Love knows no distance
Hope you take no offense
Way better than a beauty queen
You get what i mean
All over my dirty dream
Got a rise on the steam
After our wedding, let sex be the theme
Your the one, like I am to Billie jean

As I write this, sparks goes static
You read it, your my love addict
Can't rehab me cause I'm the babe magnet
Turning on all your gadget
The moment you close the doors, we go at it
Say it out, your love got me mad
Give me a kiss, and I'll show you whats on my pad
Oh darling, the best i ever had.

Life's Come Back.

I noticed, everyone's life has been a fight. A fight to survive, and a fight to achieve greatness. Was pretty happy with my recovery recently, whether it was in the poker table, relationship, social status, and also my academic.

In life, I've learned that even when the end seems dark, and if you hit a dead end tunnel, all you have to do is continue working on it, and someday u will dig your way out of misery.

There is so much more to be learned in life, and I do hope that now I'll be more in-control with my addictions. No way do I want to relive what I went through recently. Let's hope this comeback is the best ever.

Thanks for the ones who wished me for my birthday, Sorry, I'm just not into celebrating my birthday.

Still a kid in a big world, just better and wiser than last year.

Leo's are coming

Yes, July 24th is coming, hence, it means the starting of the horoscope LEO. The pride, the king of the horoscopes, the leader of all is coming.

Why ? Cause we are fucking proud to be Leo.

Leo's are natural born leaders.

Lets begin a strong long list of crazy achievements that LEO people have done.

1. WALK ON THE MOON. yes, Neil Armstrong. - the 1st person on the moon, WAS A LEO.
One Small Step for Man, One Huge Step for LEO.

I bet someone else was suppose to take the step 1st, but he just pushed them out of the way.

Leo Attribute shown - Must be the 1st in everything, so people will remember you forever.

2. BE PRESIDENT. the SAVIOR of the world. - BARACK OBAMA, oh come on, you think that Obama was treated like a celebrity for no reason ?
He is a LEO, of course he loves the attention and his capable of using his leo's power to charm the world. It's not that hard to charm people when your a leo.

Leo Attribute shown - Enjoying being the leader, Savior of others. Giving other people hope, carrying people's burden.


Okay, those are the 2 big ones.
Now onto showbiz.

okay, let's be honest here, we Leo's are good when we are riding high

3. Whitney Houston

She was one of the biggest names in music during thhe 80's and 90's, with her recent drug problem solved, now she is planning her big comeback. LEO style.

Leo Attribute shown - having a god given talent, but throwing it away, simply cause she still knows shes better than most singer out there.

4. Madonna

the queen of music herself is a LEO too. From her off stage wild party flesh showing antics, and her bravery to say anything she wants, she is definitely one of the Leo's that truly shines.

Leo Attribute shown - brave and proud to show off her sexual side publicly and being different from all the other musicians nowadays, in a league of her own.

you would get the joke if you known that madonna was in a movie called ' a league of their own'

5. Arnold Schwarzenaegger

Mr. Terminator, Mr Governor of California, his a fucking Leo too. Using his popularity to then turn leader. Surprised ? Come on, after looking at Obama, you shouldn't be surprise. Any Leo Leader probably wins the crowd by his popularity, rarely do we actually need to show what we are capable of.

Leo Attribute shown - Smart enough to transform his popularity to getting leadership support from the public.

6. Halle Berry

The First EVER african - american woman to win Oscar Best Actress award. Enough said.

Leo Attribute shown - Making black woman proud, A leader definitely.

7. Jennifer Lopez

The most influential hispanic singer in the world, has been in relationships with high profile celebrity, from P.diddy to ben affleck, and now married to marc anthony. and HOW CAN YOU NOT LOVE HER ASS.

Leo Attribute shown - Bringing class, fame and lust to everywhere she goes, everyone she meets.

8. J.K. Rowling

yea yea... get excited at the name.. harry potter and all, i'm not a fan. but you gotta respect how she bullshit'd her way into millions of dollars. Pure Leo... totally capable of sucking fans in.


Leo Attribute shown - Using her creativity to the best, When Leo talks, you listen and want somemore.


With so many more Leo's out there.. Lisa kudrow - the only cast of F.R.I.E.N.D.S. who won an oscar. Sean Penn, best actor of the year during the last oscars.
Ah yes.... sure, it might seem abit showing off this post, but suck it, Leo's are coming.

You want a harmony filled balanced company, go get a libra or something.. want revenge... get a scorpio, you want unwanted drama and waste of time romance, get a gemini.

You want leader, fame, fortune, looks, confidence.

Get yourself a Leo.

Come & Get Me

Aether.

Tick Tock
now the time is up
Aether is here, so haters I say what is up
They try to lock me up
Put me to rehab, 12 steps to clean me up
It's Aether rapping now, so shut the fuck up


Global warming melts to my pumped up heat
Declare war with this simple do re mi beat
Revenge is a bitch, but I prefer it sweet
They tell me, savior you should call it quit
Those motherfuckers even got Lucinda into so much shit
Its still me and her against the world, no plans to call it quit
I lost my eye on the ball, I'm sad to admit
But prepare for total destruction, for all the crimes I'm to commit
I say fuck the world, try to keep me down, now you feeling my spit
Hold my hand tight girl, together we're gona make it
I needed them, but they weren't there, so to hell with it
You know who you are, so let me cut the split


The world killed savior, so now Aether is having a go
If you ain't here when I need you, you bitches need to go
I ain't got time for no gemini bullshit, just to let you know
Shout out to jun hong, you know I always got your back bro
Dust the rust off, see bitches, I'm still stealing the show
Lucinda babe, You know I got money to throw
Why bother listening to a liar talking how she sold drugs for the dough
The more lies dropped, the longer her nose grow
What you gonna do? you don't get to kill me twice in a row
Savior's collapse was yesterday, history, the past, ages ago
Aether is now running the rhymes, so say hello
I'm the comeback pro
After I'm done with these shot, I reload with more ammo
Should I forgive and forget the past ? My answer will be no
You still hear the fans cheering their veneror

Come & get me

It's time to just let me be.

9. Aether.

9.

We had such potential
Such promise,
But responded my gifts.
And so, I am leaving you.
Our world is ending,
Life must go on.

Savior.

It was the darkest time
It was the dimmest of hours
As I stood alone
In a world, that was alone
Seeing the end
But preventing from reaching the end
Sometimes fear, is the right response
All time, endure will summon the magic of wands
A new story teller
A new creator
Knows not, but to save me today
Knows no other, but to pave my way
The world that I knew of is collapsing
Detox effect is soon to be relapsing
A war within
Accompanied with a battle between
Fallen savior
Death of the savior
Life must go on
When all is destroyed
All there is left, is to rebuild
Time comes ticking when all hopes are gone
Eternity realized when you accept you stand alone
Aether, I'm creating you
The world that I know is ending
You will go on.

Real Emotions.

Going through life is not easy, break a habit is not easy too.
I am currently going through a relationship bump I guess ? Maybe its the signaling of the end coming soon, or maybe it's just a scar to make me stronger. Who knows right.

This is what I learned from my previous experience, and I'm here to share it.
When a relationship ends, you probably have a few things in mind

1. You will constantly wonder what will your ex partner be doing, wondering is he/she dating other people. Basically, you want them to be unhappy, never happier than you are.

2. Then comes to lonely nights, lonely days where you noticed, by having a relationship, you have isolated most of your friends, and they are... not really there for you anymore. That's where most people panic / get desperate, and go for the 'rebound'.

3. Of course, on comes the sex need, you either call a call girl / hook up with some random person. aka the rebound / or u have chronic masturbation. Either way, it does not end well there.

A break up is not all bad, it takes an estimated time of..maybe 30 to 50 days to get over a serious relationship. By then, you will notice, it the guy/girl, was not that influence or not that important as you thought they were. By then, you would had noticed your more focus on your own work, your own social network, your own life, and of course, financially.

The funny thing is, you will probably give all of them up just to be in love again. How stupid humans are these days.

The one thing that you never noticed, is that you have already matured in ways you never imagined.

1. You've learned how to cope with losing someone, meaning next time if you break up again, just go through the same routine, instead of being the doormat some posers do by begging their partners to take them back.

2. You've learned not to trust people that easily. Meaning, being more independent.

3. You went through hell and you noticed, you are still alive. yes, you are still breathing and still alive. Yes, you went through hell, a lonely spell, and you went through it. Be proud of yourself.


Life is still good regardless. When you notice no matter what life throws at you, you take it and move on. Don't you just feel proud of yourself ?

Life is real, filled with real emotions. So no worries, emotions come and go, the low won't stay forever.

Heal yourself, move on, and live your life, without dwelling about the past.

Before I Self Destruct - The Ugly Within

At this moment, I truly think I have nothing to look forward to in Canada. LoL.
Hitting an all time low in life. Still in shock after a turn of events lately, funny how I finally found someone, yes, the ONLY ONE, that I really trust, turns out to be the one cheating behind me.
Maybe it's just karma, or maybe it's just fate.
Probably God has something installed for me in the future.

Every day is a chance for a new stance.
Every song is the beginning of a new dance.

So I guess, I have to wait this horrible moment out. As resentment goes, I blame myself for putting trust in anyone at all. This is what I have in mind, when a relationship goes through too much bumps, it is so broken up, that sometimes, you just have to let it go when the time is right. You can love someone, but not be in love with them.

Since shit like that happened, I wake up everyday, avoiding looking into the mirror, and disgusted at all my photos. I feel the ugly within me is matching my ugly on the outside.

For now, I just wish something new would come along, at least give me some hope that life is not as dark as I see it now.

This is truly. Before I Self Destruct.

Reaching Out.

I describe what I see within my sight
Look at the world from above the height
War and violence on every sight
Hatred and vengeance in every write
I'm not trying to preach, I'm here to enlight
We are selfish, unappreciative just like we did to mike

His gone now
His gone now
You tell me to move on but i don't know how
Mistaken once, mistaken twice I won't allow
So I say it's all about love to everyone
All is forgiven, after all is said and done
Let's love each other, put down all our gun
We meet natural disasters that leaves us with none
Losing love ones every minute, hour, day, month

Heartbreak
Heartache
Overwhelmed with tears upon my wake
Drip by drip it fills the lake
Of my sorrow, of my regret,
Comforting smile I just can't fake
Only when we lose something we remember how to love
Forget how to hate
I guess we never do learn
As the devil enjoys watching the world burn
We be back on selfishness after every turn

Politicians they be lying
Guys they be womanizing
Girls they be materializing
I wonder if rain means God might be crying
The world has it's beautiful side, there's no denying
Time to show some love, no harm trying
When life is hard to get through
Just so you know, I'm here reaching out to you
Life is imperfect, but still beautiful.