This post, is for my grandpa. I feel I need to do something to let him know that his grandson had not forgotten about him.

When I was young, my grandpa was always there while my parents were out of town, which happens quite often. I can't recall any specific conversations we had, but he was there when I grew up. The only memory I have about him is when I was practicing my badminton, he used to stand beside and just watch me play, with a small smile upon his face. After that, he would come up to me, offering me his favorite kaya toasted bread. I think that was my first time I ever tried a toasted bread, after that I use to run out during 8am, so I could buy it.

I don't know whether this actually happened, but I do have a memory of telling one of my family members to get two of the toasted bread once, and I gave one of them to him, as a return.

When I was growing up, in that immature stage of my life, My grandpa was diagnosed with Alzheimer. As time went on, he started to lose his short term memories, started to lose his mobility. I remember, so many times, I was so rude to him, being that I did not understand the situation. I really did not get why my grandpa was changing, why he always needed to be taken care of. When I finally knew, he was on his bed most of the time, and did not recognize who I was. There is no regret there, I don't believe people only feeling regret after others has passed, that is not sincerity.

All I want him to know is that, he was good to me, and I'm sorry that I did not understand his situation at that moment. I just need him to know, that he will not be forgotten by his grandson.
Just let him leave peacefully, while we immortalize him in our memories.
this is for you grandpa.

Song - Leave the memories alone - FUEL

Song - Tony Laf - I'm good


[Tony Laf]

When friends and family come around
And ask me
All I say is I’m good, I’m good
I’m gonna be all right

Deep inside I know
I can’t take it any more
It’s killing me, slowly
Physically, mentally there’s nothing left in me
But I don’t want people to feel sorry for me

That’s why I say
I’m good, I’m good
Said I’m good, I’m good
I’m gonna be all right

I’m good, I’m good
I’m gonna be all right
I’m good, I’m good babe
I’m gonna be all right

Ooohh.

Sometimes I can’t even talk
And walk, City isn’t long
Somebody help ooohhh
Say somebody help me

Oohhhh.

Ohh.

[ys]

when they asked how am i
I put on my smile, fake out a lie
don't want pity from those who walk by
It's killing me inside
but you will never know why
I'm good, till the day i die
Big boys too don't cry


I feel that I've done something wrong
Not talking to him all year long
God, take him peacefully,just like this song
when the news come, keep my family strong
when the news goes, be by my family all along


I'm still good


He might be gone
But he wasn't alone
We cry till theres no more tears, midnight to sun dawn.
I'm good,
Still drown in this melody, this tone.
Grandpa, you won't be forgotten.
Go in peace. I love you.
Thanks.