A venom within.

With so much stuff going on in today's world, we have learned how to love, but rarely have we learned how to let go.
People tend to say, letting go of someone is never easy. Well, I find it hard, for me to let someone get away with the stuff they did / took from me.
I still remember when I was in grade 9, bunch of punks asked me for money, I refused, and as a result I got beat up.

That day onwards, I felt a certain venom in me started to grow.
As I still hold a grudge towards them, I do plan get even with them someday, just so I could close that chapter in my life.
Today, I feel that venom has become part of my personality.
As open minded as I am, I do not forgive people until they payed their dues to me.
It is now carved in my mind, my philosophy in life

- I do not get mad, I get even. -

As the bible says,

Exodus 21 : 23 - 21:27
If any harm follows, then you shall give life for life, ²⁴eye for eye, tooth for tooth, hand for hand, foot for foot, ²⁵burn for burn, wound for wound, stripe for stripe.

and

Do unto others as you would have others do unto you. [Matthew 7:120]


We are a loving race, and yet, we are as destructive in the same massive way.
Something for me to think about, as I still seek a reason for my venom's existence, whether it is a phase of life, or it is the result of others wrong doing, an indication for me that actions can be taken when there is still time.